I shouldn't be up right now.

I hate this time of the day.
The part where I cant go to sleep.
I usually do go to bed pretty late- but its diffrent now.
It's really lonely.

Its been years since ive been single, and it's really hard for me to feel "okay."
I keep telling myself i'm over things, but nights like these...
When everyone is asleep, and the day is done,

I'm here in my room,
and all theres left is to think.
It hurts.
I dont want to hurt anyone anymore.

I just can't.... feel anything.

I don't want to.