Btw.

Hi.
If your'e wandering around my space, trying to figure out why I've dissappeared, and why I have not been around, You have come to to the right place.
For this past week Iv'e seen things, heard things, and I've come to realize that I'm better than this.
What if I'm just strong enough to let go?
What your'e doing, I dont want it any of it.
I am NOT the same person I was.
Can't you see that alot of things has changed now?

When I saw what you were doing that night; it
brought me back to how we used to be.
My stomach felt sick.
I only realized it then.
I was weak and I had no dignity or self worth.
I couldn't understand why I put myself through it.
Why...?
It's because even though it seems like I had everything back then, I still felt alone.




I watched you lay there. And as much as I tried telling myself it's nothing, I couldn't help but ask : "Why are you here..?"
Really!
Why..?
The real question is.....
Why am I here..?

Just look at what you created.
What did you expect...?
For me to go back into that position where I asked for your permission?
No.
It's diffrent now.


When you lose just about everything; The experience alone makes you stronger.
I never thought I'd feel so independent.

When you're all alone and you feel like you have noone else, the only place you go searching into is yourself.
I know what I'm capable of. And I know I am a great person.


I was speaking the truth when I told you that I am going to take a diffrent approach.
I'm not leaving or letting go; I'll still be here for you when you need me, but not for THOSE reasons.
Which, in this case, looks like I won't be seeing you for a while.


I never would of thought I would say this again....
But!
Until we meet again.~

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You don't deserve this part of me.