I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS WEATHER!

Hello blog.
Today is Monday, and I woke up at 5 AM.
I KNOW. :O
I wanted to wake up early because I hate that feeling of waking up really late!
I feel like I wasted so much time sleeping in, when I could of done something productive. >-<

This morning I cooked noodles and drank coffee while I watched Spongebob Square Pants.
To his surprise, my dad awoke and joined me and Shadow to finish up his usual breakfast- Pandesals and coffee!
Then! After fighting with my sister about her still not wanting to give back the laptop, I went into my room and stretched.
I was so angry with her... lmao
So I ended up drawing, and sewing things.
I was pretty glad my sister was being a selfish angry troll, because this morning I realized how time consuming this darn laptop is!
I drew a couple of sketches, gained more sewing experience by experimenting with elastic, painted a shirt, all in a matter of hours!

I'm so proud of myself!
I've been thinking about doing this only every weekday. :D
Waking up real early..
It really feels nice to have an early start.
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9:30 pm

Shit I slept way too early!.
I just took a nap around 6 something, and I woke up because Shadow was trying to catch a bug on my bulliten board...
Hopefully I dont sleep to late. :[
I also am feeling a bit... I dont know.
I just want you to realize how much you appreciate me.

That and,
...
I'm just scared.
Why do I do this?
When I get really hurt, I just disappear.
Not to run away.
........

When I disappear, Can you hear me..?

Disappearing into a sad silence..
Do you wonder?
Does something feel missing?

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I DO believe all of the things you say to me.

And I do appreciate you making the efforts to let me know these things.
I believe that your feelings are honest, and thats it.

Dont you wonder why people dont think youre honest with them?
Words alone arent enough.
Do you understand that?
It may for awhile, but actions should follow.
Anyone can feel things, but a simple act can prove so much more.
Because its you. Youre putting yourself out there.

The way it was when I last saw you,
You of all people should already know I'm a very observant person.
I notice all of these things.
And dont say you dont know what I'm talking about.
Avoiding the usual routine.
And just how you went off as if nothing was wrong.. or changed?
I feel like youre lying to me.
As if youre trying , or making it seem like youre someone you are not anymore.
THAT is not being fully honest.


You may feel the same way, but your plans and desires are diffrent.
Prove me wrong.