Hide your face forever. Dream and search forever.

Hey you.

It's getting really old.

As for me,

A new year is going to start soon.
New rules, new motives, new everything.

I know, I know, this is an early New year's blog, but I want to do this now, while I still feel this way.

I am thankful for every heartbreak, and every bad incident that has happened this year.
Though it was not planned,
It came into my life to reveal another layer of myself.
The purpose of experiencing a hard time is having it shake you up,
tear apart your ego a little bit, and to show what your capable of.
It transforms your life.
And it has.


Let this be a warning to all of you.
No matter how bad my life looks like at it's lowest point; You will certainly not bring me down. Say whatever you want. It won't phase me.

Quite frankly, it fuels me. Your hate is motivating.
It's flattering to be important enough to be under your magnifying glass.
All of your failed attempts of trying to crack me.
Especially when I'm recovering from a recent downfall?
Give it up.
You have no idea.
It makes me work so much harder to wipe that fake grin off of your face.
It lets me make my dreams happen. So thank you.
Thank you for reminding me what a godawful person I was when I was young and weak. Thank you for making me feel like the smallest piece of walking flesh on earth when you mention the girl I was back then.
Thank you for never letting me forget who I was.
It makes me love the person I am today even more.
It’s given me a reason to build myself up and bring you down.
Thank you for making me realize that my dreams haven’t died.





I am going to revive those powerful feelings I had back in August.

And I want to try something new.
Taking a diffrent approach again;
but this time I won't let it off so easily.
You were lucky.







2010 will be an interesting year.
New year, New me.