I'm sorry Shadow.

11:35 pm
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Today was... not great.
One of Shadow's kittens died.
I'm not sure which one yet, but it's one of the black ones..
I'm just too afraid and not ready to see which one it was.
So.
This afternoon, My sister and I was home and we suddenly heard our renters fighting again. This has happened before. The first time, the police had to come over, and I overheard the woman talking to them about their relationship, and how they have a past of domestic abuse on both parts.
They've been living downstairs in this nice studio for about three months now.
A couple, and her daughter. The woman is in her late twenties, still finishing up college, and working two jobs. She pays for the rent, and She is either divorced or apart from her ex love; She moved to Maui and met her new boyfriend here.
The man on the other hand (her boyfriend, now ex) , has no job, regularly goes to bars/clubs, and from what she said, "parties a lot." He comes home late drunk and angry sometimes..
My room is just above their studio so I can pretty much hear everything.
I feel bad for her daughter sometimes, she's 13? 14?
Anyways.
My sister and I heard them arguing.. It later transitioned to yelling, then screaming, we heard things being thrown, then, we heard crying and it just got out of hand. I heard someone run up the stairs and knock quickly at our back door, it was her daughter, her eyes were pouring tears, she stuttered as she asked where my parents were, Then the lady ran out to the stairs and frantically asked the same question, and she ran back in.
I was scared as shit, I didn't know what happened, and then cops got here.
Things got quiet, and my sister looked out the window.
She saw the woman kneeling down, holding one of the black kittens in her hands.
It's body limp and bent, crooked.
She told me and I started crying so hard, so many things ran threw my head, I didn't know what to do, or what to think!
I heard the door slam, did they slam the door on the kitten? We heard things being thrown around, is that how it could of gotten hurt? Did one of them hurt it out of anger? I had no fucking idea.
I was so fucking upset.
After pacing around and making a few calls to our parents/ boyfriends our uncle came upstairs.
He said that he tried reviving the kitten, but it couldn't make it. And this is what went down, according to what she explained to the cops.
They were arguing because he was on drugs, or was drunk, and things just got really bad. He tried beating her, and when she ran out the door away from him, she accidentally stepped (or stumbled onto) one of the kittens that were sleeping in front of their door.
Just the thought of it suffering made me sick.
The police took him away and I think he was arrested for abusing her, I'm not sure.
And everyone pretty much cried. The woman and her daughter got really close to Shadow's kittens as well, so they felt extremely guilty and apologized for what happened today. My parents later came home and we told them everything. My dad buried the kitten. The house was quiet tonight.

Now.
The thing my sister and I was talking about... these crazy fucked up relationships.
For the couples that fight way too much, that stay in these abusive hurtful relationships... It's so fucking selfish. I hope this incident opens this woman's eyes. You're not only hurting each other. You are hurting everyone else around you.
Also, this woman seemed a bit psycho in the relationship. Like she could of provoked it. Then it led to us talking about how it's so arrogant of guys to complain about "psycho ex girlfriends." Yeah they may be crazy, but they weren't born that way. Something may have happened for them to behave the way they do.
I am very upset about this, but I don't hate them. I don't personally know them, it was just bad luck. It was a horrible accident.

I'm sorry Shadow. She only has three kittens now. I'm so angry at myself for not taking a picture of all them together.. I've only taken a picture of Ink. And it could be him. My sister brought Rocky upstairs so it's either Ink, or Luna. I feel so bad for Shadow. She's been looking around for hours, meowing for her missing kitten. I sneaked her through my window earlier to feed her shrimp and Vienna sausages, it's like she knew her kitten was gone- Her meows sounded like she was mourning.

I'm so sorry Shadow. I told her that. All those nights she individually tried sneaking in each kitten into our house, looking for a different place for them to grow. She didn't trust the renters. She wanted her kittens in my room not outside, but my dad didn't approve. I feel so fucking bad right now. Don't tell me it's just a cat. I love animals. They think, they observe, they remember their names, remember people, they have hearts. I can't imagine how it feels like to lose your child. I have so many things to say, but I should stop.

I am so sorry Shadow<3


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I promise I'll update/reply to formsprings tomorrow ok?
I wasn't in the best mood today, and I need to get some sleep.
My foot is feeling better btw.
Till it be morrow.~