Ask me an anonymous question.

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4:22 pm

Hello again! ^__^
I got this "Formsprings" widget on the side bar below my Poll!
Please ask me any questions. Serious or not. ;]
You can be anonymous of course, OR leave your user info as well.

I'll post your questions and my answers to them on my posts!
Hopefully this will be fun. :3
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8:27 pm

If you guys are wondering why I'm always eating noodles, it's because it's not just plain ol'Ramen and seasoned soup!
I add fried bean curd, cabbagge, egg yolks, and green onions!
And I could eat this everyday.
Infact, I HAVE been, LOL.

I need to buy some chili oil.
This is so yummy and fullfilling ; I think I'm going to eat this now..




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8:43 pm.

Btw!

Remember this old photo of my attempt with nail art?
Now that I look back at it, I really liked the colors, and I've decided to re-do this one!
On fake Acrylic nails!
Oh, and I also promise I wont pick or peel them this time..
Well atleast not before I take a picture of the finished look!
It's just so fun..
I don't know if it's just me, but I like to peel scabs...
Or just anything peelable!
It's a bad habit, I know. :[
But, wish me luck!<3



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10:09 pm

Hello again! ^__^
Wow I didn't expect to get questions in this soon!
Thank you guys for participating!
I really appreciate it <3


[Form Spring: Your questions, My answers.]


"You live in Hawaii, correct? now how is life out there compared to say city life? or you haven't really experienced that yet..?"

Hi!
Correct.
Maui to be exact.
No, I havn't really lived in a city, but I have visited other city-like areas and countries!
And I can say that the Hawaii life is pretty "cruise" or care-free?
Sometimes I feel like this small island is a dead end, because there aren't very much oppurtunities here.
It is indeed insanely beautiful and peaceful, but there's not much to do..
Other than that, I'm pretty content with life here. <3




" I am completely bummed out about imeem as well. I kept going to the site and it kept bringing me to the myspace page.. it took a while for it to sink in, but it eventually did. What music free playlist site are you going to use now? would Loudfusion.com be an option you would consider?"


Yeah I know. :[
It's so sad.
I really hope its just temporary, it hasn't even sunk in for me yet...
Btw, I just checked that site out, and Thank you!
I will consider using this! :D
I've just been using Pandora.com
Its an online radio that plays music that you like..
If you havn't yet, you should check it out! <3


"Why don't you blog on Tumblr?? I would follow you!@"

Actually, just recently I almost ditched Blogger for Tumblr! But I thought about it really hard, and I refused.
Tumblr looks so much more cleaner and "fresher", and is most definitely the new blogging craze right now, but I love my Blogger!
I do love exploring the Tumblr world, because of all the interesting quotes and pictures though.

I just can't leave Blogger.
I love my blogging home the way it is! ^__^

Damit these websites.

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9:33 pm.

As if Imeem's disappearance wasn't enough, Mixpod.com can no longer stream audio without showing full videos that were hosted from Youtube.


Brb everyone!<3

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1:53 am

Oh hi. Good morning.
I'm about to head to bed!
Like the new music player..?
I had to adjust the player so you don't see an annoying video playing, your welcome.

.....

I'm still a bit bummed with what happened to Imeem.com.
And I'm sure others others are furious about it too.
There were thousands of great play lists, and music collections hosted on this site.
And there were several play lists that helped and eased me during "hard times"
Not to mention this Yiruma play list that Shadow grew up with..

When I was given Shadow, I hand fed her with baby kitten formula milk, and a bottle for a few weeks because her mother died.
I remember getting her during one of my breakups,
and I'd stay up in my room feeding her warm milk,
Because I, myself had a hard time sleeping at the time..

This playlist was special because the order of songs just flowed so perfectly.
By the time the song: "What beautiful stars" came along, that's when She would always fall asleep.
And then I'd just watch her.

I always thought to myself, and felt hopeful,
because even though Shadow's family was taken away from her,
She's safe now.
With me!
It was a really nice feeling knowing that.
That your'e important to someone.
Even if it's just a kitten..

Then soon, I fell asleep too.


Imeem should have atleast warned it's users about it's bankruptcy so that we could atleast save the playlists...

Myspace ended up buying the site.
And everything vanished.
I hope that it's just temporary, sadface.
I want imeem back!
...


Goodnight everyone!<3

I love my sister.

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11:55 am

I woke up this morning around 10:50 am from text message vibrations coming from under my pillow...
Who would be texting me so early!!?
Destroying my daily ritual of waking up, staring at the wall for an hour, and even my masturbation time!?!
.....

My sister.

*checks phone*
Oh lawd.

3 New messages.

She's been trying to get a hold of me since 8 this morning!

Text message: " check your face book, foo!" - 8:58 am
2nd text message: "call mee when you're ready, make sure u get you chores done by then!" - 10:25 am
3rd text message: "kimjaramillo.blogspot.com" - 10:26 am

So I got up quickly to check my facebook, and she left me the sweetest comment!


"Kimberly Jaramillo-
bitch, wake up! im picking you up today so you can be my sidekick at the mall! we're gonna take down the crazy sales and restore happiness in our closets !

be ready by 2pm. wear something casual and cute ^.^

oh, and im in the process of birthing out a new blogg -and you're in it, bwahahahaha !"


YAY!
And this is what she wrote about me in her blog:

"6) went home to find my sister in her usual: hair up, headband on, glasses with the missing lens on one side, blue spandex shorts, and white cami exposing her nipples :| and her trusty Shadow next to her watching me. I put my bags down, grab her (Im talking about Shadow, of course) and smother her till she hissed like Edward Cullen, ha. Kryzko (sister) immediately follows me like a lost puppy asking, “What are you doing here? Are you off? Where you going now???” … then she tells me to go outside to look at the *new pet daddy got us in the backyard. (wtf? Is ten cats, a pond of fish, and a turtle somewhere in our backyard not enough?!) but instead, she takes me to a caged bonzai tree ? Apparently, my dad took home ANOTHER jackson chameleon from his workplace and spent his whole day yesterday making a cage with large holes :/ hehe, poor daddy. it’s the thought that counts, eh? … anyway, I went back upstairs and got ready for a couple of hours...."


LOLOLOL

okay okay.
I still havn't cleaned or gotten ready, and its already 12.
SHIT.
I'll explain things later when I come home.
Have a nice day everyone!<3

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12:29 pm


[Re-edit!]
See the link below for more of our humor that I oh so love!
Just thought I should share. :3


http://krizkoblog.blogspot.com/2009/11/oh-and-look-what-i-found-today.html

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7:42 pm

Alright hello again!
Just got home.
And I cannot believe what just happened to me.

I just finished rinsing off my legs with water and antibacterial soap in the bathroom sink lmao.
Which btw, made me feel like a porn star climbing up this pretty high pedestal...
Only because I was all dolled up in a cute dress, and I just felt pretty sexy today ;] TEEHEE.
Anyways... As I was saying... [haha]

When I got home, I walked to the back of my house to greet my kitties.
I knealed to the grass to pet and play with the furry little angels they are and this is when it happened..
There was one particular cat out of the bunch that turned around and shot/sprayed me with it's PISS!
Was this cat marking it's territory; on ME!?!
This is probably the fourth time I've had a feline spray it's pheromones onto my body.
I know cats spray or "mark" their territory to claim what belongs to them....
Does that mean my cat just wanted to warn other fellow cats that I was it's property
!?!
What a selfish pussy.

......
............

*20 minutes later*

OH MY GAWD.
So I just finished googling once again, and TADAH!~
I'm not alone... again.


[click to enlarge]

And the question was:

"WHY IS MY CAT SPRAYING ME???!?!?!?!?!?!?
we have 5 cats. we are fostering a kitten until we can find a home for her. we have had her for 2 days and the second day one of my cats Jester decided that he should go ahead and spray me...TWICE IN THE SAME DAY!....if its because of the new foster kitten then i dont understand it because we got our youngest kitten Roxie and our other kitten yoda after finding Jester and he NEVER did this with her.....no he's not fixed yet but he will be soon thanks to the Big Fix program here in AZ.... but still, he's never sprayed ME before...its disgusting and obviously smells horrible!"

And here are a few anonymous answers ...

"He sees you as HIS territory, therefore he is marking you. Showing the rest of the cats that he OWNS you. Hah."

"Hun, I feel for you. My cat did the same thing to me. It's a cats way of saying that "You belong to me" or "This Object belongs to me". It's a cat's way of marking his territory and telling other cats to back off. Hehe, not only has my male cat sprayed Me...3 times... but he also sprayed one of the female cats...THAT HE BROUGHT HOME. Cats are strange, but funny at times, but we love them anyway. By the way, even if you have him fixed, that doesn't mean he'll stop...mine didn't -_-`"

"He hates you."

LMAO.
Okay enough with that.
Imagine if humans did this.

.......

I would approve.

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10:33 pm

Oh! I almost forgot.
Going to the mall with my sister today was fun.
Surprisingly we did more brainstorming for gifts rather than shopping for ourselves.
She asked if I wanted anything, but I wasn't really interested in any clothes..
We just spent more money on food and drinks.

I don't feel like going into much detail, but here is a picture of 2 things I brought home! Heehee



I love love love "Green Machine" Naked Juice.
And the little black graph book because Ive always wanted a tiny pocket sized book where I can doodle and write in. ^_____^
(Well I had a few in the past, but they weren't cute and small like this one! :D)

Bye! :D

TEEHEE

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1:31 am.
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[Re-edit]
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1:42 am.

I feel...... fine.

I just came back from the bathroom.
I eagerly sat down, and I felt like writing something really special.

But, I couldn't help but be bothered by my need to pee.
And since I didnt want anything to be interrupting my writing time..
I left my room to do just that.


The cold air followed me to the bathroom and as I walked toward the toilet, I couldnt help but glance at the mirror, making a self note to wash my face.

I sat on the cold seat, and looked down.
Watching my fluids leave my body..
.....

Have you ever played with paint before?
Don't you remember..?
Dipping a slightly soaked paintbrush in bright red paint, and letting it drop into a clear glass of water...
Watching it's solid color pierce through the glass-like liquid barrier, and seeing it spiral and twirl, and slowly fade away...

That's exactly what it's like watching yourself do this.


..........


I rinsed my face, patted it dry with a towel and glanced at the mirror again.
My nose..
It is so shiny!
I poked it with my pointer finger in disbelief to check if it was still human flesh.. and not plastic... or porcelain?
I laughed at myself and headed back to my room.


Now here I am.
Sitting on the pillow I purposely put on my wooden chair
because I am too lazy to sit up.
I still can smell the sweet cocoa butter cream I rubbed all over my body...
My attempt to fade away my scars...

Including the lines I have on my tummy for slouching.

My body feels so much warmer..
This cream has some kind of oil base, and maybe it's circulating the heat my body is giving off?
Maybe.


I just remembered.
When I sat on the toilet, I thought to myself;
What would life be like if we didn't need to use the bathroom?
...
Or sleep?
They say we spend the majority of our life sleeping.
What would life be like..?


Would that mean we may be more wiser?
What would people be doing during the time we are usually asleep?

Here's another one.
What if we didnt need to eat?

Oh right.
We wouldnt grow.

Life wouldnt be very precious if we didnt have to sleep.

Because when we sleep, we dream.
(Well the most of us.)
And when we wake up, it's a new day.

Right..?

That's what I'm going to do right now.


I'm going to sleep.

Maybe I'm going to dream about that pregnant man I keep seeing in my dreams.

I miss him. Hehe.

Well, Goodnight everyone.<3

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2:53 am


Oh Hi.
I see that youv'e stumbled onto my blog because of Facebook.
Goodnight to you too.<3

Day off.

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6:34 pm

It was my parents day off today, and I just found it really nice waking up to them asking me If I could make them udon noodles. LOL
And so I did.
And something really heart warming happened, Let me explain.


After I added the eggs with the noodles, I covered it with a clear lid, set the stove on simmer, and ran off outside to go grab some green onions.
30 seconds later, I come back and the pot is overflowing and spilling onto the stove! LOLOL
Since my dad is really strict about keeping our new stove clean,
I frantically tried wiping it, but it has already been cooked onto the surface, and left a gross brown looking stain around the pot. :[
And right before I could clean up the evidence-
My dad walked into the kitchen..
*DUN DUN DUN!*

Looking at my "OH SHI-" expression on my face, I quickly murmurred that I'd clean it, and he just smiled and grabbed a bowl.

And that's it.
I dont know, hehe I just felt really pleased because thats how much of a good mood my dad was in today!
After his fathers death, and a whole lot of other problems that arose, my dad has been really stressed about alot of things..
And now, Everythings falling into place, and it's just really nice to see my dad happy.
We also have extra money now that we have people renting our studio!
Maybe it's just the holiday spirit...
Nonetheless! December is pretty great so far. :]

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8:10 pm


One thing that annoys me are people who hide and sugarcoat the cold truth with optimism.
Being optimistic is a good thing to an extent.
But when people use it to make you feel "higher" or better than others,
Encouraging them to not listen to any negatives at all,
And just believing that people say hurtful things only because they may hate you?
Or feel jealous..? - It's being ignorant.

If you make a big deal out of something, you are attracting a big crowd of opinions whether it be good or bad.

And when people say hurtful or offensive comments, either be honest and tell them, or just simply ignore it.

Don't push people away and play off innocent.

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Sigh* I'm going to go change my bloody pad now, kthx.
[And Yes, I am on my period.
As much as I hate to use this reason to be the cause of my raging hormones;
Let this be a warning to you.
That you will be seeing emotional/vent posts during this time.]



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9:47 pm

OH YEAH,

Btw I finally uploaded the video from the County Fair!
I miss this woman.
And enjoy our mating calls.
*especially mines.
LOLOL

[Don't forget to pause my yoga music]


Original Video- More videos at TinyPic






Oh and this video because Shadow still refuses to fight cats her size. lmao.

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1:19 am

Oh, here we go again.
I don't even know what to say right now...
All I got to say is!
....
Catch me when you need me.

Sunday= Cleaning day!

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2:33 pm.

Sundays for me, are cleaning days.
Hardcore cleaning.
Every nook and cranny will be as clean as a whistle.
I windex everything, vacuum shadows pubes, organize my work area, etc etc!
I also clean out my computer of any useless files..
Its pretty fun, and the weather right now is perfect for it.
Brb!

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Yummy in my Tummy.

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2:11 am

Om nom nom nom!



Here are a couple of foods that made me happy today!
Well technically yesterday!

Oh what to say, what to say..

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3:55 pm
Here I am again blogging...
On yet another chilly rainy day....
What's on my mind right now?
I'm really not sure.
I just feel like blogging...
I just feel like I need to type out my thoughts.
It's weird.
Even if the things I talk about arent very significant,
I feel like I need to let out these thoughts to get a hold of my mind..
I wonder if anyone even cares about my blogs...
Hah!
I'll make a poll.
I'm also watching this cute anime called "Strawberry Panic".
Ive always wondered what it would be like going to an all-girls school.
What else.... What else.

Oh, my kittens are really weird.
I went outside and they were sleeping in the rain.
Hahaha. Yeah I know.
This blog isnt very interesting.
I'll be back later!
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4:24 pm
I was doodling lastnight..
While my sister was hogging my laptop,
I was in the corner giggling about what I was drawing...
I dont know why, But I have some weird fascination with pregnant woman....
Just knowing that there is this little "miracle" growing inside of you.
But, the one thing I find more fascinating than pregant woman, is...
Pregnant men.
LOL Dont judge me,
but I've had multiple weird dreams of this scrawny pregnant man,
And seems as if hes forever pregnant!?!
Or maybe he could be just like my dad.
My dad is skinny, but he has a big belly.

It kind of reminds me of those poor malnourished children you see on television...
They say its because their bellies are full of worms..?
OMG Okay I know what to draw next.
Hahaha.. Anyways, enjoy the one I have here! Oh and Shadow is a Meerkat Wannabe.
lmao, its just that she can stand on her two feet for way too long..
Trust me she can stand for a LONG time, this footage is just the beginning.

Spicy Food = Spicy Poop.

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9:24 am
Good Morning Everyone!
ROFL.
I just deleted a long paragraph of me complaining about my fast metabolism, and how I poop so fast.
After reading it, I felt a bit grossed out and decided it wouldnt be a great idea to post it. lmao
All I need to say is.... My metabolism sucks.
I've just started to put myself on a weight gain diet!
It is fun. I know.

*Makes a peanut butter and jelly sandwich*
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December 1st!

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5:01 pm
Oh man.
I love the holiday spirit feeling!
It is time to give back to all of you. :]

NOOOOOOOO >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

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9:33 pm
All the pictures ive hosted on tinypic got moved -_-
Ill fix it later!


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Bestfriends.

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11:44 pm
I've said many times in the past.
That I didnt believe in bestfriends!
I was wrong.
I guess I went through this phase where I felt like I didnt need any?
(How stupid.)
Ive recently been through a really tough time in my life where I felt like there couldn't be anything in the world that could makes things feel... okay?


I also kept my distance with people.
Because I didnt want to hurt anyone anymore.
I still do this to some extent... To boys ofcourse.
But thats a diffrent story.
....

All in all,

I hung out with Ericka, Lea, and Alickz today!
And we pretty much updated each other.. Had a cry seshion too! xD
Well...just me.

I dont want to go too much into detail,
But all I need to say is that... I need them.
I really do.
We could be away from each other, but we always reunite, and nothing ever changes.
We bond even closer too!
I'm really thankful for today. <3

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12:08 pm

Btw,
I havnt really had the chance to say this, but!
Thank you Leigh for the kind shout out!
Although we havnt met yet, someday WE WILL. :3
You are like my internet bestfriend. LOL
<33333
[1:55]



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12:10
Hahahaha... This has turned into a Friend Appreciation blog. lmao

Vi!
I never really truely showed how much I appreciate all the little things you do for me... For example, how much I adore this drawing youve done of me and shadow..
I always look at it... lolol
Just thought I'd let you know... lmao.



That and, how we have the most interesting internet "times"
Sending each other links and links of endless fun
Vent sessions about boys, and stupid woman....
You can move to another island, but the internets will always stay!
<3


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12:24

I'm so sad because I just realized all of people I just listed above dont live here anymore. sadface.

Thanksgiving Agenda

Haha my sister being the organized responsible person she is, She created a Thanksgiving agenda, and sent this to me through Myspace! Thought I'd share. :D
Iv'e been waiting for this day!
Every year we have all of our cousins and relatives over to celebrate a huge Thanksgiving at our house. So it's always a big thing for me hehe.


1. potluck-KFC bucket [hahaha This is just something she wants to bring]

2. desserts-Kryzkos pie [My luscious banana cream pie! :D]

3. appetizers- Kimbys' baked mussels

4. décor

-orange, green, and brown color theme

-Christmas decorations (lights, wreath, stockings)

-Thanksgiving plates, napkins, and cups

-music and movie (Star Trek,The Ugly Truth)





AGEND0


Morning-2pm: clean and prep decorations

-clean kitchen, dining room, living room, bathroom

-set up Christmas decorations (stockings, wreath, table pieces)

-prep entertainment (music and movies)





2-4pm: grocery shopping ($80 SPENDING BUDGET)

-KFC (open till 4pm) mixed bucket ($20)

-Safeway (open till 6pm): baked mussels, kryzkos pie ingredients, mommys ingredients ($50 BUDGET)

-Walmart(open 24hrs): Holiday door wreath, Thanksgiving utensils ($15 BUDGET)

-huy's pork and peas takeout?? [LOOL Huy and his need for filipino dishes]





4-6pm: cook and prep!!!

-save KFC (rebake later and throw in bucket again)

-prep & bake mussels at huys house

-go home and finish prepping (huy brings DVD)
6pm-7pm: shower, get dressed, and PARTAY :D Gobble-Gobble!!

Another wonderful morning!

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9:22 am
It rained early this morning, and now its dark cold and cloudy, and I LOVE it.
Brb everyone. Going to make some coffee and breakfast! :D

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10:10 am
hahah Note to self.
It is very comfortable and fun to walk around the house in your undies.
I find what I am doing- It's very amusing.
Its only me and Shadow home!
She's eating my leftover scrambled eggs right now. xD
brb again!
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Heart Shaped Gum.

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10:32 am
One of the first things I saw this morning- sitting on my Milky Way bar. :]
As I awoke, the air was cold, including the sole of my left foot!
The lemonade bottle was there laying on its side. My sheets below were slightly cold and wet.
And my feet felt so soft and good when I rolled my socks off!
I love that feeling.
You know, when you sleep with your socks on?

I usually lie in bed for a long time before I actually get up, But I could hear Shadow's needy meows echoing in the halls!
Has my sister Kim left for work ?
And has forgotten to put this cat outside again..?
I wasnt sure, but I ended up calling for Shadow, holding in my morning pee.
Already being near the bathroom, I went and sat on the toilet, squishing my toes into the furry bath mat....
I smiled.
Then there she was!
Walking toward me.
I happily said "Good Morning Shadoowwww!"
And she just stared at me.
With those glassy yellowish-green eyes.
Sometimes, when cats do this, I feel like we're connecting.
Then She just ruins our moment and starts licking herself.

*Stretches*
I'm going to make some breakfast.
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My nipples hurt.

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9:14 pm
I think that time of the month is coming.
Maybe that explains all of my emotional recent posts...lololol
Im heading to bed early! I want to have a good start tommorow.
Goodnight everyone!<3

He was cool.

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9:22 am
That is the name of the movie I was just watching earlier!
Im in a really good mood right now because its cold and rainy!
Then again, watching this Korean movie made me feel really lonely.. LOL
And also made me wish I was living in a country.
You know... Just that lifestyle where alot of unexpected things may happen..
Exciting new things! New faces, and just everything else in general.
Imagine this.
Living home in your own apartment, and you decide to order some takeout.
Ding! Dong! The door bell rings and the delivery man in uniform and all is at your door. Handsome, fit, ... and wet. From the rain ofcourse.
LOLOL
cmon doesnt that sound exciting.
Besides wanting to live somewhere far far away.....

I miss all the affectionate stuff!
I think I may be romantically challenged.
I'm just so used to being into relationship after relationship, and I always feel like I need to share my love with someone lolol

Sometimes I wish I had some kind of cute neighbor girl that I could do all the cutesy stuff with.. LOOL
I cant believe I just said that, I think I'm just confused....
damn.
I don't even know what i'm saying anymore...hahah
I'm going to stop blabbling away now. Be back later! :D
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But thats okay with me.

2:00 pm
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Hm. Im so mad at this bipolar weather...
I was really excited for a cold and rainy week!
Besides the bipolar weather, I really need to buy pure acetone to remove these acrylic nails, and motor oil for my sewing machine!! And another thing! I'm pretty upset that one of my close friends are leaving the island... sadface. sadface. sadface.

Who else am I going to have weird conversations with!?
Someone that can be brutally blunt and honest to shu away creeps and perverted old men!!?
........
hahaha
I feel like we just started to get real close... :/
I know I always say I dont believe in that word "bestfriend" or say I even have any, but She's the closest thing I got to one!
Sigh, I guess its not so bad... Its only to another island...
And She'll come to visit on holidays and such.
WHY VI!?!! WHY!
Anywho! I'll be back, I'm stalling to avoid some house chores.
lololololol
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4:25 pm

DAMN that was some hardcore house cleaning... Im all sweaty and about to jump into the shower!
Something really funny happened though.
Alright, so when I vacuum, I sing and dance around, I just pretty much go crazy because I don't think anyone can hear or see me...hehe
And little did I know!!
There were people standing up my sandhill!! Just there. Drinking soda and watching me.
I dont even know how long they were there..
........
........
.......
Well!

Here is yet another video to show how much of a good and loving pet owner I am.



I cant believe I actually went "NYAAHAHAHAHAH!!!!"

EDITING BLOGSPOT

CBOX and everything else will be back! Just experimenting with templates!<3

Wednesdays..

Wednesdays feel so lonely when it rains like this.
I even went looking for Shadow so Id have some company!
So here She is, Taking advantage of the heat my laptop is giving off.
I made some coffee too.
I'm pretty bummed because I didnt wake up as early as I'd like too..
I couldnt sleep lastnight.
I was up listening to trance/Ambient music, dropping dingles and duds on OMGPOP..
Oh, and it was also nice to rekindle some abandoned fires..
I really did appreciate it ^-^
Made me feel so much better.
I just wish I had a really close friend that would just come over and keep me company!
That would be really nice.

I'm usually home alone on weekdays, but Wednesdays and Thursdays, EVERYONE in this house is gone.
Well... I think.
It's just too quiet.

*takes another sip of coffee*

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS WEATHER!

Hello blog.
Today is Monday, and I woke up at 5 AM.
I KNOW. :O
I wanted to wake up early because I hate that feeling of waking up really late!
I feel like I wasted so much time sleeping in, when I could of done something productive. >-<

This morning I cooked noodles and drank coffee while I watched Spongebob Square Pants.
To his surprise, my dad awoke and joined me and Shadow to finish up his usual breakfast- Pandesals and coffee!
Then! After fighting with my sister about her still not wanting to give back the laptop, I went into my room and stretched.
I was so angry with her... lmao
So I ended up drawing, and sewing things.
I was pretty glad my sister was being a selfish angry troll, because this morning I realized how time consuming this darn laptop is!
I drew a couple of sketches, gained more sewing experience by experimenting with elastic, painted a shirt, all in a matter of hours!

I'm so proud of myself!
I've been thinking about doing this only every weekday. :D
Waking up real early..
It really feels nice to have an early start.
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9:30 pm

Shit I slept way too early!.
I just took a nap around 6 something, and I woke up because Shadow was trying to catch a bug on my bulliten board...
Hopefully I dont sleep to late. :[
I also am feeling a bit... I dont know.
I just want you to realize how much you appreciate me.

That and,
...
I'm just scared.
Why do I do this?
When I get really hurt, I just disappear.
Not to run away.
........

When I disappear, Can you hear me..?

Disappearing into a sad silence..
Do you wonder?
Does something feel missing?

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I DO believe all of the things you say to me.

And I do appreciate you making the efforts to let me know these things.
I believe that your feelings are honest, and thats it.

Dont you wonder why people dont think youre honest with them?
Words alone arent enough.
Do you understand that?
It may for awhile, but actions should follow.
Anyone can feel things, but a simple act can prove so much more.
Because its you. Youre putting yourself out there.

The way it was when I last saw you,
You of all people should already know I'm a very observant person.
I notice all of these things.
And dont say you dont know what I'm talking about.
Avoiding the usual routine.
And just how you went off as if nothing was wrong.. or changed?
I feel like youre lying to me.
As if youre trying , or making it seem like youre someone you are not anymore.
THAT is not being fully honest.


You may feel the same way, but your plans and desires are diffrent.
Prove me wrong.

My life path number!

Your Life Path Number: 3
Life Path Number 3: The Twins

If you were born with a Life Path Number 3, your friends probably know you as a life-loving, creative, and sparkling personality.

All of these things are true: the Life Path Number 3 is born for pleasure, inventiveness, and living life to the full. You love to connect with people, whether face-to-face (you are probably the life and soul of any party) or through your creative medium: many Life Path Number 3s are writers, painters, broadcasters or orators.

It is not just your ability to entertain that makes you so lovable though. You are one of the worlds listeners as well. You don't pretend to be interested until it is your turn to speak - you are genuinely intrigued by most people and believe everyone has a fascinating story to tell. You probably break some hearts though, when you hear a fascinating story, absorb and digest it, then flutter off to the next person without looking back.

Money is not a great concern to those born with a Life Path Number 3. You are happy to spend it if you have it (probably on those you love) and are unconcerned if you are broke. After all, life is wonderful and there will always be more cash around the next corner. The amazing thing is that this seems to be exactly how it works out for those born under the 3 - something always turns up.

Life Path Number 3 has another face too, one that you know about but your friends would be very surprised to discover: you are easily hurt and, even if you are feeling fine, can retreat from the world at a moment's notice. Sometimes this is to simply recharge your batteries and other times it is to brood over a deep wound that only you can see.

Finding balance is the biggest challenge for you. You hate to be trapped in a routine and will often jump into an undesirable situation simply for the sake of change. Try to think more carefully before you quit your job, or catch a plane to Kathmandu - even though thinking things through can feel like a prison, it might
save you some heartache from time to time.


And My horoscope for today<3
Sunday, Nov 15th, 2009 -- Even if you think that your life is heading in the right direction these days, you're also aware that your foundations are not as stable as you thought. Your first reaction may be to fearfully hold on to what you have, but if you are too inflexible, you could miss a significant opportunity for growth. What seems like a loss could actually be a way to make room for the gains ahead. Move forward with optimism instead of trying to navigate by looking in your rearview mirror.

Who Am I to say....?

I Don't know anything, at all.
Who Am I to Say..... You need me?

Saturday morning!

Gooood morning Sweetheart, would you like some cream with your coffee?


Saturday, Nov 14th, 2009 -- You can make a very practical decision today that has profound consequences, yet others might not see the logic to your choice. It may seem as if you are being impulsive now, but you have been seriously thinking about your situation for a while, unable to tip the scales one way or the other. Don't worry if your uncertainty returns, for this is all part of an ongoing process

I have an important message.

Krystle, please remember this day.

The day the family and I left the Philippines.
It's one of the saddest moments to ever experience because you just feel like it could be the last time.

I remember having one of the most powerful feelings to come home to be better.
Not only for me, but for everyone else I was coming home too.
Being a month away really changed my perception on what I wanted, and what I should be thankful for.
Being away for so long made me learn what to really appreciate and what I need to hold on to.

This also turned my dad into my hero!

On my way home, not only did I want to change my ways but
I also had my mind set to wanting you to regret what you did so badly.



I was afraid to come home.


I never expected for things to be like this when I got back.
..
Never.




Krystle, please dont forget these strong feelings you had that day.
Even though things didnt go the way you wanted to, don't let that change everything you wanted to offer. You are a better person now, and I want you to keep striving to be happy. You are still young, so you shouldnt be worried about this thing called "love". You've had enough for now. Please focus and concentrate on imporant things that WILL make your future. Take a diffrent approach to things, and don't hold back. Don't put any of your talents to waste. Stop being so distracted, and remember everything you felt when your only grandparent cried on your shoulders and asked you to make your dad proud.

Focus.

I SEE WHAT YOU DID THAR.
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Ive been feeling so cynical.
It's a fun feeling!
I think I am going to crash soon. Today I got a Hazlenut Iced Coffee from Mcdonalds and to cure the watery taste I chose to add MORE coffee ground.
Then I felt like it was too strong and bitter so I added MORE sugar and cream.
Oh! And caramel too.
Ive been hyper and twitchy for the past two hours.


My horoscope for the day:
Thursday, Nov 12th, 2009 -- It's hard for you to take your responsibilities lightly now, for the Moon's conjunction to somber Saturn in your sign sets the tone for the day. Don't waste your precious energy attempting to put on a happy face for others because that's what they expect of you. It's not your job today to make everyone feel okay about the issues you face. It's up to you to look inward and ask yourself tough questions so you can gain clarity about the next phase of your life.



I'm really enjoying the cold weather and thunder btw! :D

Weird camera.

Stole this from Ben's stickam! xD
Ben, thankyou for secretly recording me! LOL
This is also proof to show how weird my hands are. o-O
For some reason, Unknowingly, my hands stay in a awkward position for a while...
I usually have people point that out for me , but I started to notice it in alot of my photos!

How odd.


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5 MINUTES LATER!

LOLOLOL Now that Ive watched this over, I didnt really realize how awkward looking it is!!! It seems as if my hand is kind of ... slow?
LOOOL.
Damn.

Oh and look what I found today!

Hahaha...
Apparently I made this for my mum for Mother's Day in the Second grade. :D

Btw.

Hi.
If your'e wandering around my space, trying to figure out why I've dissappeared, and why I have not been around, You have come to to the right place.
For this past week Iv'e seen things, heard things, and I've come to realize that I'm better than this.
What if I'm just strong enough to let go?
What your'e doing, I dont want it any of it.
I am NOT the same person I was.
Can't you see that alot of things has changed now?

When I saw what you were doing that night; it
brought me back to how we used to be.
My stomach felt sick.
I only realized it then.
I was weak and I had no dignity or self worth.
I couldn't understand why I put myself through it.
Why...?
It's because even though it seems like I had everything back then, I still felt alone.




I watched you lay there. And as much as I tried telling myself it's nothing, I couldn't help but ask : "Why are you here..?"
Really!
Why..?
The real question is.....
Why am I here..?

Just look at what you created.
What did you expect...?
For me to go back into that position where I asked for your permission?
No.
It's diffrent now.


When you lose just about everything; The experience alone makes you stronger.
I never thought I'd feel so independent.

When you're all alone and you feel like you have noone else, the only place you go searching into is yourself.
I know what I'm capable of. And I know I am a great person.


I was speaking the truth when I told you that I am going to take a diffrent approach.
I'm not leaving or letting go; I'll still be here for you when you need me, but not for THOSE reasons.
Which, in this case, looks like I won't be seeing you for a while.


I never would of thought I would say this again....
But!
Until we meet again.~

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You don't deserve this part of me.

My November Horoscope!

I go to Astrologyzone for all of my horoscope needs. :D


"
Saturn is now in Libra, and in the coming years Saturn will show you a vision of your best self. While Saturn is known to push and prod, what you achieve under the coming three years will stay with you forever."

-Saturn in my sign for three long years!
So It's really important for me to be focused!

"What you choose to do will be new to you and not be easily undone, for the very reason you are doing it is to add a sturdy pillar to your life. You are beginning the next chapter of your life and your new challenge will seem a bit like a rite of passage. "

-What I want to do, is pretty new to me.
Iv'e been receiving and sending out packages this past week, and I'm starting to actually get the hang of this! I've also been working on custom orders for friends, and alot of new oppurtunities have been rising for me.

"Romantically, you are lucky that you have Jupiter, planet of good fortune, in your house of true love in 2009, a once-in-12-year-visit. If you are saying to yourself, "Yes, but this year has not been THAT great for me in the love department," I say this: Yes, that might be the case, but you have reason to be optimistic. Last month, on October 13, Jupiter resumed direct motion after months of being retrograde. This means you will have Jupiter working for you at double power through the reminder of the year. Make it a point to socialize more! Mars will help make that happen, and the coming holidays will bring more invitations for parties."

- "Yes, but this year has not been THAT great for me in the love department," LOL.... That made me laugh. And sure. I've been optimistic! Think Happy thoughts Krystle! And alot of friends and family has been such a huge support. I love them terribly. Oh, and how could I forget about the holidays! I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving because when we have Thanksgiving, The whole family comes over to our house to celebrate it. And the Foooooooooooood! The delicious FOOD. YESSSS!
I really love the Christmas spirit too. ^__^

Venus will be in Libra during the first week of November, the time you should see about updating your appearance. You will want to look your best from now on, and Venus is standing by to help! This is true for both men and women Libras - no one will be left out.
-lolololol....
I really like my short hair and I'm begginning to think that I'm going to maintain a short haircut for a long time! And as for style, I'm planning to alter every piece of clothing in my closet! I'm pretty excited.


"My favorite days for you for love will be November 25 and 26. In the United States, the second day will be Thanksgiving, so this is really good news! Of course, if you aren't in the US, you STILL will have plenty of fun on these days. Attached or single, these are your number one days for romance. "

- Hmmmmmm.... I'm kind of iffy about this one because I told myself that I don't want to be in any sort of relationship for a really long time. I just want to focus on other things. But who knows? MAYBE something "romantic" may happen on those days. THEN AGAIN! I can imagine myself falling in love with a tender turkey leg on Thanksgiving... *drools* just kidding.
Maybe.
:]

Summary !!


"Saturn is now in Libra, and is directing his gaze on September-born Libra and those with early degrees of Libra rising. Although those Libras will feel the changes toward a more stable, secure life that Saturn is known to bring, all Libras will notice that life has taken on a serious tone. Saturn will get you ready to build a firm foundation for the future, and although it will require a bit of hard work and concentration, later you will be very proud of what you created in the period of late 2009 to late 2012.


By the end of Saturn's visit in 2012, you will have made your life your own, reflected in the long-term goals you committed to during Saturn's three-year visit to your sign. Your new endeavor will have many new elements to it that you'll have to learn and master, but there will be elders nearby to help you do just that. After this period is done, you will emerge stronger and more mature, and others will treat you with more respect. You will move into a new life phase, so this is all very exciting."

DAMN YOU KRIZKO

This is exactly why I shouldnt play games. I get so into it, and I let it take over my life. >.<
When something fun is infront of my face, and it has goals, I feel like I cant put it down until it's completed. Cafe world- I admit set me back a week...lmao
Fortunately, this blogspot reminds me of my progress...And seeing that I havnt even updated for a whole week made me realize this.
I get so lazy and distracted by the littlest things!
I havnt been active or even been replying much.. I'm sorry.
This weekend, I'll clean it up.
Not to mention that my sister is single now! So right now it's like we're in this together. Trying to be better...improving ourselves...
Our goal is to save up money to visit her bestfriend in Cali for a week in March?
So that alone is my strong motivation!
Sometime in the future I want to move off Maui. And no. It's not because it's boring; I love Maui. Sometimes we take its beauty for granted.
But, what a friend told me is absolutely true. Drama circulates around like entertainment. Many are closeminded. Not only in experience, but other things... like Fashion and style!
And here's the quote that really motivates me to want to travel this world so badly.

"To live in the world without becoming aware of the meaning of the world is like wandering in a great library without touching the books."
- The Secret Teachings of All Ages."

I discovered this quote from Dan Brown's novel, "The Lost Symbol"
Here's another thing! One of my goals are to read all of the books my auntie left us. When my auntie left this world, She saved me.
She would always read her favorite books in the garden with my cats.
Usually one cuddled in her lap.
I'll make a poem about this soon...
You know that quote...?
"I am a part of everything I read."
All these books helped make her the strong hopeful loving woman I know.
Nicholas Sparks.
"The Notebook", and "A Walk To Remember."...
He writes many novels about love, tragedy and fate.
So this is what I'm looking forward to!
Getting back on my two feet, Saving up for Cali, Reading these books,
Just pretty much working harder better stronger faster!
*techno beat kicks in*
I'm ready to rise.

Internet games

Yesterday Vi and I were bored out of our minds and decided to join facebook just so we could play with the fun games. xD

Cafe World!

I found it odd how the default workers were ALWAYS black!

YoVille!
We wanted to dress like hookers and go around and just be...well...sluts.

LOL Vi got kicked. And I ended up getting kicked aswell as you can see....

Play this torture game! It has really great animations.

http://www.keepbusy.net/play.php?id=the-torture-game-3

Proof!! [3 clips]

Alright, what you are about to see are clips of my cat Shadow attacking me...Please understand that it took me alot of courage and bravery to put myself in this situation- To record proof that this is not the cute fluffly young cat you see on KrizkoTV...... That in reality, she's EVIL I tell you!

LOLOL...
[I'm not being serious....xD And noone was hurt in the making of these videos.]
I love her to death.

[Don't forget to pause my music! xp]

I am not alone!

[Click to enlarge]

I was searching why Shadow attacks me for no reason.....

Fight for your own dignity and self-worth.

I can't believe myself.
It's amazing how strong and patient I can be.
It has been too long.
And, I wont tolerate this anymore.
I won't leave or let go but;
I am going to take a diffrent approach.

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And....
I. fucking love. horoscopes.
I just read this page long horoscope for the month of October for me.
Everything- Its all so true!
"September proved to be one of the hardest of the year " - True.
"At last, October dawns with an undeniable feeling of rest and relief.:- True!

There is so much more! It's so amazing......
I really feel like I'm on the right path.
Everything is falling in place.


October will be a glorious month.

Justice is served.

I love how karma always comes around.


Oh, how sweet.

LATE county fair blog ;]

Hellllllo! This is a really LATE County fair blog. :] This year I went with my really good friend Vi! It was pretty darn fun. ^-^

This is me waiting for Vi because she pees alot.
hahahaha. :p
It was really cool because when we first went into a tent, A man told us to come over to his booth and take some photobooth pictures......For free! He thought we looked "cute" with our kitty ears.

There were alot of funky costumes on a side table :o
We donated our saliva samples too.
Had to fill out these really serious looking forms...LOL. [Im being sarcastic]

Me and Volcano!

It sucks that our economy is down......Well, Let's go to the county fair people! xD
lololololololol.....wut.

I would NEVER ride the Zipper/Fireball. Nevar!!!!

But I would ride the Music Express a 837498742208348432 times! xD

So heres the only video I made from the county fair! ^-^ I really liked the fact that Lady Gaga's song "Poker face" was playing! "Can we fly! Can we fly!" And watching this makes me laugh. Im laughing and screaming random obscenities , and I also pressured Vi to ride this with me. ^-^ I love her!<3

Original Video- More videos at TinyPic

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One of my kitties just got run over.Not Shadow, just one of the older ones...
He was really timid and kind and sweet.
And Im crying, im depressed, and angry furious fuck I am going to kill someone right now.
I dont live in a fucking busy neighborhood.
I live in a dead end quiet street filled with children trust me.
Theres a small daycare a few houses away too!
I still dont fucking see why there are heartless closeminded people out there that still think its okay to speed up my street and back down.
SLOW THE FUCK DOWN AND OPEN YOUR EYES.
If you see anything ANYTHING that fucking moves on the road,
SLOW DOWN.

AND if you do accidentally do it,atleast have a heart and mind and dont fucking drive off.

Maybe someone on this small street loved this "thing" you apparently just ran over, and would atleast like to be informed rather than surprisingly finding it like this.Then I wouldnt be so fucking angry.
No apologies, no sorries, no fucking comfort. Nothing.

I know many of you must be thinking im crazy, or that many animals die everyday so its not a big deal.But if one of your family members just got runover, and you later end up finding them there right infront of your house, lying in its own blood- Its fucked up.

Whoever you are,You are disgusting.
Karma will get to you oneday.
Goodluck.

SIGH.

Today, it rained.
Despite the fact that I had to run out and grab the laundry that was hanging in the backyard,
I couldnt help but smile.
The rain- it feels so cold on your skin, the smell, the way it looks like when it falls,
Its beautiful.
I love it.

Please come again.

So I'm really not a robot?

I know I'm not completely over him. He still crosses my mind several times a day, but with each one of those times, a feeling of contempt also passes through my heart. Maybe if this happens enough, my heart will become completely hardened to him, and I'll get to the point where he doesn't affect me anymore.

In your dreams.

I will haunt you in your dreams. Do you understand that?
Do not take me for granted.
Every time youve hurt and pushed me away;
I will. push. back.

I'm growing very impatient, and sometimes it scares me.
My last goodbyes, my last words to anyone that disowns me is haunting.

Let go.

Let it go Krystle.
Let it fucking go.
Forget.Forget.forget.forget.forget.

Arggg

I neeeed to gooo to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!!
Its this lemonade drink i made...I added so much sugar.
stupid me. ><

Note to self.

Krystle, You believe that you can see the big picture now and that you know what's best for everyone involved. But you may be viewing the future possibilities through such a narrow filter that you're missing something very important. Your positive attitude may seem like blind optimism to others until you consciously decide to also look into the darker side of your feelings. Don't be afraid of negativity because it offers a perspective that can move you closer to the truth.




--I love horoscopes.

Sigh

I want a county fair date. :[
Well I already have friend-dates,
but When ever I think of county fair,
I think ferris wheels! Merry go rounds! Music playing.
Couples holding hands- and the girl holding a huge stuffed animal,
The cold air blowing on your skin, Bright lights in every direction, sweet desserts...
and being surrounded by huge crowds of people carrying faces and motives of all kinds.

Yet it feels like this night belongs to just the two of you.
All under a starry sky.
Its a once in a year kind of thing...
I know many of you may think im silly, but its special to me.
Sigh.
I am such a hopeless wreck sometimes.
I'm going to go eat some cereal now, and think about what i just said.
lolol.

Demons in your dreams.

Boy, you look so pretty.

My last day being jailbait.

uh oh.
I feel like I need to do something very drastic and crazy today.
after today, I can actually get arrested now.
omgggg!

AHHHHHH I CUT MY HAIR!!

Im not sure with myself whether I did it because ive always had that urge to go short?
Or! Im just trying to do one of those "after breakup" haircut moves .
Maybe its both.
Yeah. A little bit of both.
I mean, why not? Hair grows.

It's not like it's a permanent decision, and it really marks the occasion.
the change for the better,
A fresh start.

If I cant leave or runaway from this, then change for myself is always the best cure.

And I'm actually happy I did it!

While I was doing it though, I was tearing up- I dont know why.
All of these emotions just started to leak into my head.

I guess it was because I was doing something thats bringing me that one step closer to let go?
That I was chopping off a part of me that was once there...in my last chapter? lets just say that.
I dont want to be the same person I was.
And cutting your hair makes you feel diffrent.
It really does.

For once, I actually feel safe.
Krizko, your'e going to be okay.
:]

Gooooooooooood morning everyone!~

hehehehe. Its actually nine in the morning now. Gooood morning!~ Btw, I love the weather today! Hopefully itll be like this for the next few days! Chilly and clear.

I am not going to procrastinate today. So this morning I woke up searching the nets for some motivationl/inspirational quotes- and heres one I found.

" Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling five balls in the air. You name them - Work, Family, Health, Friends and Spirit and you're keeping all of these in the air. You will soon understand that Work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls - Family, Health, Friends and Spirit - are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for it."

-This is one of the best metaphorical life quotes I have ever read. Its so true. Things will never be the same . And.........I need to quit playing with my balls.

So the reason why i'm typing this blog so early in the morning is that I feel like being productive today.
Therefore, I am telling myself to not hop onto this evil time consuming laptop until I get alot of things done.
I will be back at midnight.
Sooooo wish meeeee luck!~
Puahahaahahahaha..........WOOOO!!!!

I shouldn't be up right now.

I hate this time of the day.
The part where I cant go to sleep.
I usually do go to bed pretty late- but its diffrent now.
It's really lonely.

Its been years since ive been single, and it's really hard for me to feel "okay."
I keep telling myself i'm over things, but nights like these...
When everyone is asleep, and the day is done,

I'm here in my room,
and all theres left is to think.
It hurts.
I dont want to hurt anyone anymore.

I just can't.... feel anything.

I don't want to.

WHY IS IT SO HOT?!?!??!!?!?

I miss the desserts in the P.I.!
Our halo halo isnt even worthy of being compared to theirs!
Just look at that.
Ube and coconut icecream, topped with fresh fruits, all piled on fluffy shaved ice and sweet milk.- This is perfect for terrible humid days like this.
Which reminds me! I STILL need to upload those pics! Possibly tonight? Maybe. ;]

Sigh.

Recovering from a recent downfall.

Btw,
I miss how tiny Shadow was!
and gentle, and defenseless, and puny!!
Now.....Omg. Now shes so crazy.
She is not afraid of anything.
I think since her childhood was taken away, and her mum and siblings were brutally murdered,
shes turned into a demon kitty I tell you!!
She attacks me sometimes. o-O
And at the same time , I think she needs some kind of therapy because shes always massaging my clothes and sucking pieces of fabrics as if they were nipples.
I'll make a video, and you will understand what i'm talking about. lolol.
Why do they have to grow so fast.

A vent in poem form.

These thoughts, these questions, these views, and perceptions are whirling and jolting in this head of imagination.
It seems that I cannot unleash these emotions through physical actions...
It has grown too heavy, so monstrous, I cant hold this.

To let loose these captive feelings free, in hope for a stable mind, and self satisfaction,
I ask myself:
Why does this obsession, still linger? Why havnt I taken any action?

This infatuation, its still here, and it is growing;
Why must it stay?
It creates conflict, and confusion, weighing me down as it sways.
I tell myself:
I have so much to teach, to influence, to preach.
I have too much to confess, too much of everything, i have cracked,
i will screech.



This is not a poem ; not an ordinary read.
Don't expect a flawless format, and your average rhymes, i plead.
let these words guide you; flow along and glide with me.
i have no time, no sense, and no purpose to conduct grammar nor sentence structure properly,
Im just letting these aquisitions, these confessions, leak and flow.

So please do keep up, and do not get lost,
Take my hand and follow me. and now lets go,
Stay with me, read carefully, analyze correctively,
Because even I am struggling, fumbling for words, to catch up with these endless controversies, these forsaken abnoralities.
My head is pulsing. Convulsing as I speak.
I am suffering, distressed, I am self- torturing. I feel weak.
I FEEL WEAK.

I feel like ive witnessessed and commited so much, that i feel alone.
I feel so alone.
Alone, in this world, of which I call my home.
I understand why its like this,
why my mind has grown so blown!

I feel like Ive visited, had a taste, and experienced both worlds.
The corrupt, the immorality filled, the wrong, the evil swirled.
I have cheated there, I have sinned, I betrayed, and played.
Yet I have forgiven, loved and received love, learned, and obeyed.
I too have lived this present world of the expected good,
this right; the oh infamous holy misunderstood.

Doing so, my life hasnt been so clear,
I have become more complex, more aware that most negatives arent as evil as they appear.
Who are you to judge what is considered wrong?
When you havnt experienced, or committed a sin so strong?

You assume that You know better, that you are forever right.
Because you have never let your sails down, never had evil in sight.
But the wrong doer, has the chance to experience the pleasure, to learn, and expand.
To grasp this unbearable feeling right in his raw hands.
You point, and you plan to brand his face a disgrace?
As for you? You will suffer, Understandings are tougher, and you will go back to your place, in this delusional human race?

Its ironic, as us being humans, we know we deceive.
And when morals lower, and good deeds go slower,
the people you have conceived, are now the naive?


I can see right through many of you, I can read you too easily.
You cannot see me so deep, you cannot see me so clearly.

-Krizko

NEW BLOGSPOT, New everything, oh and a Walmart haul.

Hello and welcome to my new blogspot everyone! Now, Many of you has stumbled to my blogspot for one of the following reasons: One, You are a close friend of mine
and I wanted to share this with you somehow....:]
Two,
you somehow found me through online search engines,
OR Three!, You are a friend of mines on either myspace/Youtube and found me through my evil linking boobie traps. Muahaha.

Whatever the reason is, here you are now! :]
This is my Blogspot that your'e reading right now, not yours! Which means! There is no correct way for me to write/type this. Punctuation, grammar, sentence structure, etcetc, is non existent here. Heck, I even make up new words! Ahem* "fatcoma." (after eating a whole load of Mcdonalds) "Let me lie and sleep here in my little oh fatcoma of greasy oogly goodness. YUSS.....(while rubbing my swollen belly.)

" LOL . Well anyway, if your eyes are scanning along these lines right about now, you, my dear friends, are not only being nosy, (I forgive you, :3) Butt!!!! You are also entering my head. This blog is the bucket to my leaking mind. Any form of emotion or rant will be written on these entries, so just prepare yourself to read the good, the bad, vent sessions.....my perspective, my opinion, my thoughts, or just anything, ANYTHING!!! I feel like writing. DIY crafts, tutorials, hauls, pictures/videoss, - just anything. :]


I made a new blogspot for many, many reasons. Let's just say that it makes things much easier for me to forget the past. *sigh* I'm sorry for my late return everyone, it's just that Iv'e been going through alot of poop for the past few months, especially after I got back from my P.I. trip for my grandpa's funeral...

Alot went down. My past came back to haunt me. Let's just say that.

For the past few weeks, Ive been pretty much in my little Great depression, moping around, trying to heal. Trying to forget. Everything.
I just want to be happy now.
So no more sadfaces for me! It's time to switch my optimistic button on
and just move on right? I fucked up. I need to clean up my own shit. And if noone wants to be a part of it, Then I'll do it alone.
That's pretty much it. And that's exactly what I'm going to do.
Krizko is back, AGAIN. And much more stronger. Sigh* AGAIN. LOL
People that know me knows that I'm always, always in some kind of crazy drama.

I dissapear sometimes, I fuck up ALOT, I experience the most unreal things ever.

Hence the reason why I own this complex mind. My mind has grown corrupt from many scenarios and drowned itself with sinful desires.
For me, Things are slowly changing and progressing, hopefully into something better; let them change.
I think I'm at a point in my life where I need something real. Not just in romance, but in everything. I want to be special to somebody.....Anybody!

But then again, I'm also terrified of that responsibility.

Nothing is the same anymore....Was it for the better? I'm not sure yet, but I do know that everythings going to be okay in the end.

I'm over things, and moving on. Each day is yet another day closer to the day I will figure out why, I am actually here.

What my purpose is. I'm pleased with who I am, and who I'll become.

I'm complex. Keep up.

LOL, now enough with my self motivation speech, and let me share with you what I bought at Walmart the other day!! :D It's pretty much just three clear organizer bins for all the craft supplies I bought at the P.I., more bobby pins, and six 18 in. x 24 in patterned fabric!! I'm excited about using those for small patchwork projects! weee~ Oh! and that little clown boy- I just put him there for fun , heheh your'e going to see him again in the future! hahah. OK BAI. till it be next timeeeeee <3