Sunday!

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8:37 pm

Alrighty, so I've decided to do a mini review on the lenses one pair at a time!
Like I mentioned, I got my lens yesterday. (January 30,2010)
Here is the packaging! I blurred out my home address for all you stalkers out there. ;p No need to thank me! Oh, And Shadow was a great help. She's chewing on the bubble wrap as we speak.




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So these are the EOS Adult Brown circle lenses. I got them from Pinky Paradise and I highly recommend this site! The Site is well organized and has a really professional and clean layout so it's easy to find your way around.

I ordered this pair on the night of January 19, and it got shipped out the next day on the 20th. Therefore, it took exactly ten days to reach me! I was really satisfied because they are shipping from Malaysia to the U.S. and I live in Hawaii. ^__^
*Actually it reached the U.S. (Los Angeles, California to be exact) on the 29th, but since im in the islands it took another day to get to me!*

I am aware that these look gray in pictures, but I knew that before hand, and I liked how these lenses seem to change color depending on what lighting you are in! It can either look tannish-brown, or a true gray.
Compared to other lenses that have a solid pupil hole, this has a crystal like pattern that blends well with my dark brown eyes.. It looks pretty natural, and I wouldn't mind wearing this everyday!

The enlargement isn't dramatic; but it's still noticeable. Which is a good thing because I wanted a natural pair of lenses.
I've been wearing contact lenses for years, so these were really comfortable.
I could wear them for 8 hours+ ( which you shouldn't, LOL) without any dryness or discomfort, but that's just me! Using eyedrops help too.




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I'm really happy with these lenses. :D Maybe i'll make a short video too, eh?


Also, I ate out with my older sister and her boyfriend and Asian Cuisine again!
Pictures!









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My lenses came innnnnnnn!!!! Yayyyyyyy!

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10:40 am

My lenses just came in hehehehehe.
It came in earlier than I thought.
And, I WAS SO DISAPPOINTED.
It wasn't even a mailman!!! It was a Mail WOMAN.
She wasn't even hot, and I felt bad because she had casts on her fingers LOL
That was so stereotypical too, LMAO.
I could only imagine how that happened....
She was very kind and curious though. Asking me what I ordered from Malaysia...
I should of told her it was porn or anal beads or something...


Sooooo I'm going to soak them for 6 hours, and in the meanwhile I'll be cleaning up, and helping my daddy clean the fish pond!
I'm not sure if I'm going to have pictures up tonight..
If not tonight then tommorrow! :D
Be right back.<3
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My room.

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1:08 am

Why.
Just being in my room makes me angry.
How I always save atleast one Strawberry Lilikoi..
Well atleast till I get another pack to replace it.
And when it gets late,When I go out to grab Shadow, I start to get really nervous.
I'm ridiculous.
What you said keeps replaying over and over again in my head.
And your'e right, I did die a long time ago.


In a few hours, my lens are suppose to be delivered today!
That's keeping me happy and excited!
And this time, I will NOT miss it. I will wake up early and just camp out in the front of my house..
This is also a good chance to make an interesting video..
I love a man in uniform. ;]
LOLOL
Have you guys ever watched those hidden camera videos where the customer trys to seduce the mailman, LOL
I dont think my balls are big enough for that though.
Well not yet.
I'm still working on Project 105. (My weight gain goal, hehehehe)
So for this past week I've been doing alot of resistance excersizes and it feels really good!
Starting this week I'm going to work on my flexibility again. ^___^
I use to be so flexible :[
I miss being able to put my foot over my head.. hahah
Anyways.. lololol

My computer... I underestimated how many crap I had on here..
Look forward to new content! [pictures]
goodnight!<3




-----Horoscope!-----
Saturday, Jan 30th, 2010 -- The gregarious Leo Full Moon can turn you into a bull in a china shop because the force of Mars joins her today to push you to let everyone in your social or work group know where you stand. Fortunately, your key planet Venus is also in the picture, enabling you to appear gracious to others, even if you are on a mission. Don't worry too much about trying to be nice now; if your heart is filled with good intentions, they will carry you through

Aloha Friday!

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1:28 am

As the rain slowly falls and only the fan is heard to smoothly pierce the quiet night,a rhythmic clicking of a keyboard is heard only by the closest of objects; his telephone, his printer, and her soul.

As they sit quietly on two different pieces of world, he feels closer than he has ever felt towards anyone he's ever met or seen; feelings initiated in a vague float-feeling environment as if it was another dream.

But he doesn't wake up, and the feelings he feels pounding inside every living ounce of him are real, as if to say they are like a pinch or a testament put in place to set the difference between reality and fantasy.

And as he feels his head swim slowly towards the bottom of the ocean for air, he imagines taking her with him, because even in water you can fall, for each other. The lines blur because she's magical;

She is his living fantasy in a dead space reality.


Someone wrote this for me ^__^ <3.

Goodmorning!
This is probably one of the only things keeping me sane tonight.
So my package came in!
But, I missed it, so I have to go pick it up at the Post Office. :[
Fucking carriers... It was raining today so they probably couldnt leave the parcel at my door.
Wait no, I scheduled a re delivery, so its suppose to come on Saturday. :[
Sigh.

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Horoscope!
Friday, Jan 29th, 2010 -- Everything seems to be getting more complicated again, especially if your friends are making demands on you that raise your anger. You don't want to be pushed around and are likely to step into the game fighting mad. It's best for others to leave you alone now, unless they are willing to put up with playing according to your rules

Tuna and crackers

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12:51 am

I swear, I've been peeing every hour.
It's all the water I've been drinking!
Atleast my pee is clear now.. LOL

So I uploaded a couple of random clips and videos on my Youtube!
I didnt think that cleaning out my computer would take so long, theres so many clips of Shadow I think I'll just make a video out of it!
.....

OH MY FUCKING SEMEN STREUDELS!!!
JFIOGRDKSJDFPOKAWDOK0039ROI[W-EOR'FL[ES
;D.S]DFLSDF[PLSDF]A=WFR0OKL3W9RI34KRO['WL3[R;EWFPLWEerf4rup09u3rp9airojwed0wjedkmIJIUHUJHERF

....... 5 minutes later


So my sister gave me this sugar packet with an inspiring artsy quote on it a while ago,
and I pinned it onto my bulliten wall of inspiration.
When Shadow needs to go outside to pee, she hops onto my dresser and claws at the wall aside my door. (Well, in this case, the bulliten board)
While I was typing out this blog, she hopped onto my dresser and hooked the innocent little sugar packet and looked at me.
Before I could even finish yelling her full name, she looks up at the sugar packet and slowly lowers her paw!
Showering her chest in a waterfall of sugar.

I have to vacuum this up tommorow..
Alright I just put her outside!
It's still raining too. ^____^
I should go to sleep.
Goodnight. :]

Sending myself into exile.

Horoscope!
"Tuesday, Jan 26th, 2010 -- You are feeling a new wave of tension rolling in today, but hopefully the carrot that is dangling in front of you is large enough to hold your attention. Resolve petty differences between you and your sweetheart now before they grow into an unapproachable mess. Stop making excuses in the name of love; you have work to do and you better get started."

DAMIT.
I hate you today horoscope, I hate you.


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11:48 PM
Hi.


Pressing my tongue against the roof of my mouth..
And over the tips of my fangs,
I can't help but savor this light painful feeling.
I just recently finished a hot cup of noodles,
and after the first scorching sip, I became numb.
I was careless.
I was hungry!
A few more slurps and I still could feel the burn- but I didn't mind.

I didn't mind because it felt good running down my throat and into my gut.
I was cold and I needed it now.
Before it was too late;
-before my pre dinner gets cold, of course.

....



.....

That was my metaphorical interpretation of how I'm feeling right now btw. burp*

I've had alot on my mind for awhile now..
Twiddling my fingers about my wants and my needs..
Contemplating about goals and time... and people around me..
Sometimes I just feel really lost and out of place.

I feel numb and a little fragile right now, its over whelming.
Right now I'm going through this phase where I really just want to be alone.
I still crave the comfort of others, and as much as I hate depending on people for that, it just feels really "right".

I think that I've toyed and manipulated my feelings so much that I'm somewhat romantically challenged. Or that my mental health is really disoriented..
I start to lose interest in alot of the things that usually make me happy, and I just get really depressed.
It's temporary though. (thank goodness)
But it still scares me.

After alot of practice and painful trials, I've aquired the skill to flip the "off switch" on the heart.
I find myself watching terrible videos of people being killed or tortured, and I won't feel a thing.
It's awful, I know.
It's a really empty feeling and I cant describe it, because even I don't know.

And it goes the same for people. Sometimes I dont really absorb the feelings people have.
I can see it, and know what it is, but I'm usually really confused and I don't know if it's real?


Something happened to me as a child, and you won't fully understand me unless you experience it yourself. I was too young to understand what was happening to me,
And If you were taught to make others happy by doing things that are usually sentimental to people today- All those little things that people cherish so much are much harder for people like me to grasp.

I'm getting off subject, and I should stop,
it's getting really late.
I'm really fucked up, I know.
Sill trying to accept myself..
Trying to take a different approach to this.


..
.....
I just want to be happy that's all.
Goodnight!<3

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btw, I'm calling you right now. I'm okay now.
Good morning! :]

Pretty Monday!

Horoscope!
"Monday, Jan 25th, 2010 -- You may be in a playful mood today even if you have a lot of work to do. Thankfully, your lighthearted attitude allows you to overcome obstacles with finesse. Spend some time making plans for an upcoming trip or vacation. It doesn't matter if it's only a night on the town; just having something fun on your calendar will help you to focus on what you have to do right now."

Today I made a self note that I wanted to take myself on a date to the Maui Ocean Center sometime. I havnt been there in years.
I'm really excited to see all the sea animals..
Also, I'm planning on dressing up like a total tourist LOL!
I want to buy me some candies and eat at a restraunt, and pretend I'm giving reviews of the whole place! hahaha
But seriously.
Possibly in 2-3 weeks..



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9:07 am

Good morning!
I woke up really early this morning.. ;]
And I'm cleaning out my computer right now!
Brb?
Breakfast time!

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10:47 am

Wow.
That was probably one of the most delicious breakfasts I've had for a very long time..
Teriyaki glazed spam, fried egg, potugese sausage, and butter garlic potatoes with melted cheeeeeese!
yum.
A friend told me that I need to start drinking water if I want to gain weight....
So for the past 3 days thats what I've been doing..
Forcing myself to drink this tasteless tummy space consuming liquid....
Lastnight was the first night I've ever finished a WHOLE bottle of water.
LOL I know.
I'm curious to see how my body would react if I start drinking water now.

Also, this whole calorie counting thing.. not working for me
I'll just do all the counting in my head :D
du du du!
still cleaning out this computer.
be back later gators!

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6:48 pm

Is it just me or does drinking water make you more hungry?
Anyways! as soon as my computer is clean, I'm going to start making videos!
I have alot of clips of Shadow, and I dont know what to do with it..
Hopefully by tonight I'll be done!
I'm saving all of these photos and files I have floating around onto photobucket right now.
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Nights are lonely without you.

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9:42 pm

Hi!
Sorry for the late blog, I actually wasn't going to blog today,
but I am because I'm in a good mood right now! ^_^
Well, a little. Hehehe.
I'm here sitting, waiting for my bowl of kimchee noodles to finish cooking..
I put it in my dresser because Shadow was trying to eat it...
Hopefully my panties wont smell like kimchee..
Also, This calorie log thing is getting pretty... tedious.
Especially when your'e eating something that you have to look up calories for..
For example, I just ate two sweet potatoes..


Anyways!
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2 cups whole milk - 300 calories
1 can Passion Orange - 140 calories
Teriyaki Yakisoba - 420 calories
Kimchee bowl - 380 calories
2 eggs - 140 calories
2 sweet potatoes - 260 calories
1 cup pineapple chunks - 200 calories

Total Calories- 1,840

DAMIT.
I fail today because I woke up really late, and I want to go to sleep early tonight.:D

It's 10pm now..
And I'm hoping to wake up around 5 or 6 to get an early start! ^_^

My sister is going to pick up some Hershey's Chocolate syrup for my milk too.
Yayyyy chocolate milk!

byebye.

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1:00 am

Fuck man, I can't sleep :[
I just tanked a large cup of chocolate milk, and im going to lie in bed until I fall asleep.
Goodnight<3

Guess Twat!

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2:58 pm

Okay this is what I am going to do.
Everyday, starting now, I am going to keep track of my calorie intake everyday!
My goal is 2,500+ a day!
(I know its pretty big for me, but I just want to set a high goal)
And that's to AT LEAST gain one pound a week. hehehehe.
I'm also going to do a hour of resistance exercises so I don't just poop out all of my calories..
I need to give my body a reason to store some fats! ^__^
Sooooo..
Don't laugh at my food, LOL
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1 can Cappuccino- 170 calories
12 Pizza rolls- 420 calories
15 Cheeto cheese puffs - 160 calories
1 package Shrimp Udon Noodles(230) + 1 brown egg(70) = 300 calories
total calories so far = 1,050


LOLOL
1,450 calories to go!

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1:32 am
1 can Passion Orange- 140 calories
Tuna Mayo Sandwhich with Whole wheat Bread- about 250 calories
Remaining Tuna/mayo with 15 tortilla chips- about 200 calories
Leftover Costco Rotisserie chicken - about 150 calories
2 cups of rice- about 400 calories
15 Cheeto puffs- 160 calories

total= 1,300 calories

Total calories for today- 2,350

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......
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GOTTA CATCH THEM ALL!


Oh, and I'm also doing this calorie log thing for motivation, and a good reason to get back in the habit of blogging again. :]

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5:12 pm

ALSO,
I just would like to say Thank you to one of my Blog TV viewers (Charles) for the generous Donation!!
I was suppose to buy a Hello Kitty Neck Massager



But after doing some research on it, IT REALLY IS JUST A NECK MASSAGER.
I was disappointed.
I was hoping that it was just a silly lie, but I've seen reviews.
The figurine on the top just vibrates, and the bottom part is where the on switch is located, and isn't made for reasons I was hoping for. :[


After a few hours of researching, I figured that I should order some prescription circle lens instead.
I've been using this same old pair for 3 months+ now, when it's suppose to be disposed after 2 weeks.. Damn.

Not to mention how much I squint on on cam, or how I hardly respond to the chat because It's hard for me to see ..
In real life, (LOL) I have trouble reading things like menus at fast food joints, or just anything from afar..
I have bad vision.
:/

*RE EDIT- BTW I broke my glasses. :[ It's missing a lens on one side, and on the other side, The handle part for my ear came off, LOL
The tiny screw fell off and I don't know where it is.. DAMIT*


So.
I ordered lens from Pinky Paradise, and maybe I'll do a review?
Okay I will. :D

I got 3 pairs: Dolly Eye Grey, EOS Adult brown, and Ultra Black CK-105.
I picked these three because I wanted a pair of dramatic lens (dolly eye grey are bright and somewhat creepy looking, HEEHEE) A natural looking lens ( Adult brown) and a lens that I could use everyday! (CK-105, which just has a black gradient like rim)

Pictures:

Dolly Eye Grey




EOS Adult Brown




CK-105




* I do not expect the products to look as good as they do in the ads, but when I get them, I'll be the judge of that! :D*


I also couldn't resist adding in this $1.99 facial mask!



I love the smell of green apples.
Now I am going to have the honor of having a green apple scented "facial" ;]
(LOL Vi.<3)


Can't wait for my order to come in, it's suppose to take 7-21 days, I'm patient... I think. :]

I also donated 40 dollars to The Red Cross Fund the same night, because I felt bad!
Hope for Haiti!

Since I'm doing this appreciation segment, i'm going to go ahead and thank Mark also for his donation and gifts! (LATE I KNOW,LOL forgive me.)
I've never really gotten to say how much I appreciated them.
Shadow likes to play with the Crystal ball. ^__^
And I pick my teeth with that kitty pin, (JUST KIDDING ;])
The rest of the trinkets are still sitting on my desk, continuing to bask away in cigarette scented boxes.
A portion of your donation went to Haiti btw~

http://www.redcross.org/

So there you go.
Expect a review on circle lens and a more talkative Krizko on Blog TV in a week or so~

<3
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9:07 pm

Hi.
I just got off the phone with someone really special.

I'm sorry.
But it's for the best okay?

Don't take any fault because you are an amazing person.
Everything about you was perfect, it scared me.
I do apologize for being.. maybe too kind
I know I warned you, and you also agreed that we would'nt get this close.
But I didn't know myself well enough.
I couldn't help it.
But.. that's who I am. I like to please and excite.
It seems that it's all I've ever known..

It makes me happy.


Who doesnt like the comfort of knowing that your'e special to someone..?


Maybe someday we'll get to see each other.
I just can't be in a serious relationship right now.
Especially if I can't even see you.
I've been in relationships after relationships, and after the last, that one month where I isolated myself from everyone- it was the worst month ever.

The first month I've ever been alone.

What does a person like me do?
Being the lovable Krystle I am, I always feel like I need to make people happy,
It brings me happiness.
I love to be around others.
The sad thing is that I don't know how to be happy alone.
I've never really gotten to have the chance to experience what it's like to be alone and happy.

The next few months after that terrible month , I started to come out again,
and things started to feel better.
I used all this extra time to get closer to my family, and that was my new inspiration..

Then New years came, and I met you!
It was unplanned and a lucky coincidence, and we just connected so quickly.
Twenty days.
Just twenty days, and we got so close. :/


Remember New Years, our unplanned little anniversary<3
I'll keep that really close to my heart. You were the first person I spoke to when this year started.

And every time someone comes along, I'll know better.
I'll be more careful okay?
So I wouldn't end up hurting the both of us. :/
Your'e really special to me.
You have so much going on for you, and don't let this unfortunate event bring you down.
When I'm ready to be in a relationship, I'll be ready to make it work.

Don't wait for me.

It's going to be a long time.
Keep in touch, and don't forget about me!
Because I won't, I promise.<3

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1:51 am

DAMIT
I had to force myself to eat those 15 cheeto puffs, LOL
I am so full.
Stupid me, tommorrow I'm going to try make this easier by eating every 2 hours?
I feel like I just shoved 1,300 calories down my throat just now

Okay okay well enough of eating my depression away...
Time for my nappy!

Till it be morrow!

Hi.

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12:55 am

Hi.
And hello daily visitor.
What do you look forward to seeing when you visit my blog..?
Do my emotional posts amuse you?
....

I havn't been posting much, I need to get back in the habit.


Also,
I just realized something.
I like confident and sometimes cocky people..
When people know what they have, and can back it up as well.
This trait attracts me because it makes me want to challenge them.

But when they throw themselves onto others- It's taste-less to me.
filthy.
How could you have all this precious self ego,
and just ruin it by being so wasteful of yourself?
Sure, maybe it's fun to flirt, but don't make it a habit.

Let's refer back to a well known quote:

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

Is that a really attractive trait?
To be known for what you do?



For me, I know I am an amazing person.
I own a beautiful mind and I know what i'm capable of.
My character is attractive, and I like to believe that I am beautiful also.
I like to preserve this.


I value myself too much to go around throwing myself onto others.
Collecting victims, and keeping them in your gallery for when you need an ego boost..
When you have all of these amazing traits, and you dont know how to be careful with them -it's careless.

Are you not aware that you are hurting people? Confusing and tormenting others?
You can't blame them.
You know that.

Like I said, It's getting really old.


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1:36 am

Bed time!

IM BLEEEEEEEEDING!!!

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5:29

First period of the year!
I feel so bad.. I keep neglecting my blog... I've just been really busy.
And I also noticed that my visitor rate went down, so....
I'm back!
hmmm..
I gained 2 pounds, :D
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1:17 am

hi.
Sigh.
If I wasnt in this situation, things wouldnt be this way.
I like to believe that i'm just special. That's why I've stuck around for so long.
Sometimes I feel like i'm the only one changing.
That i'm the only one growing up and finally realizing what I want.
I had to endure so much for this..
It's just getting really old.

....................

*Btw this goes out to a specific person.*

Anyways,
I'm going to try something...
It's called...
NO INTERNET WEEKENDS! :D

How does that sound.
I know it's already Saturday, but my day hasnt ended yet.
yeah :]
I'm not exactly sure why i'm doing this, but... I'm doing it.
So....
See you on Monday!

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Strawberry Lilikoi

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6:26

I think I've become an insomniac... 5-6 pm feels like morning to me, and I get to bed around 8-9 am...

I'm really comfortable with that.
It's either that or my whole day consists of random power naps..

I'll brb though.
I'm going to do some sketches and possibly sew somethin!
I feel inspired today! ^_^
I'll be back sometime after midnight*

toodles chicken noodles.
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Serves you right.

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7:54 pm

So after settling some drama, I went to poop and I lost two pounds LOL.
I know that because now I weigh myself before and after I go to the bathroom, and it just seems that my meals arent going anywhere.

I think it's because I dont drink any water... And that I dont work out?
I'm going to start doing little resistance excersizes, and lift kitties, erp, I mean weights.

Sounds good?

good!

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1:35 am

Here's a fact about me.
When i'm nervous, excited, or extremely happy, I cant control my self from laughing or making weird joy sounds.

Sigh. ~

Sunday BBQ!?!?!

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5:55 pm

Grilled mushrooms, bell peppers, asparagus, chicken, steak, shrimp, and hotdogs= FUCK YES.


I can never get tired of steak though.
I always reheat leftover steak on a pan with chopped onions,
then eat it with rice and a fried egg.

This gaining weight thing is pretty damn good! ^__^

*Note to self: Buy more weight gain! I'm running out. *

Be right back.
Going to tidy up a bit :]



Btw, I just wanted to say that I really appreciate all of the kind supportive comments!
I feel better now, and I am really happy.
Muah!!!!!<3

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9:54 pm

I just took a nap and I had the most creepiest dream EVER.
I'll explain later, my sister wants to borrow the laptop and wont give it back till 2 in the mornin!'

I'm going to tidy up my room and eat the bbq food now, byeee ;]
Be back in a few hours honey suckles.

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2:54 am

Hi.
Another quiet night.
So I went to the kitchen to eat at the dinner table alone.
No television, no radio, just Shadow purring under my chair..
This unknown number has been calling me for months now,
About 4-5 times a day.

This is really interesting because I block unknown phonecalls, and it automatically goes straight to my voice mail.
My sweet and simple voicemail.

Who are you really?
Do you feel a bit better hearing my voice every morning? and night?

....

What's even more funny is that once every few weeks, That rare day comes where I dont get that unknown missed call at all.

And I get a little sad.
....
Sigh*

Well goodnight,
I'll be up early!<3

Not again,

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1:15 pm

I am sorry everyone.
For neglecting my blog..
I've just been really busy and honestly, lazy.
I'll try harder.
Anyways.. I am really upset again.


I feel betrayed and angry.
I am disappointed, hurt, and a little ashamed.
Here is a tip.
Don't ever two face me.

Everything becomes a fraud.
I am not a fool,

I am dead to you.

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7:09
I open the door and my blinds pull out.
The wind is shaking the windows.
And over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky.
Shining so brightly, there are too many to count.
Eyes so blurry with tears.

Hey, I look pretty crying.


I am exhausted.

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9:46 pm

NKFNAPIANF"PASFKPOSAF:{PLS{PF:LOK::JOJO:I

................

Why do you do that.


I wish there was a turn off switch for my emotions.

I can never truely hate anyone.

Sometimes I wish that I was a complete heartless douchebag that didnt give a fuck.



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2:16 am

SIGH.
again.

I know you read my blog.~

;]

Sleep.

1:46 am

I am getting so tired of this.
I'll update in a few hours!
Power nap time.
bye.

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Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens.

11:52 am

Good morning!
I woke up around 5 this morning because my cat was being SPIDER KITTY AGAIN on my window screen.
She is too clever.
SHE KNOWS that when she starts to climb onto my window, I quickly run out to get her.

I took her in and tried going back to bed.
But this pussy could smell my bowl of tuna leftovers..
so I had to get up again and put it away!
Then! After jumping on my bed and massaging my blanket, She starts playing with a Walmart plastic bag..
IJNEIFUNUIBHKSW$SNDIJSAD.
I fed her catfood, and that kept her still only until she was done eating...
After other sleep disturbing mishaps,
I couldnt go to sleep, and I cleaned my room.
:D
...................
Breakfast time!

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9:55 pm

I can't excite you anymore.
I'm not a last resort.

I don't know about you, but i'm hurt.
It's a new year; I want change.
And I'm going to make that happen.

What you did made me realize how easy it is for you to cancel out on me.
How easy it is to just get up and go...
I am no option, okay?

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1:28 am

Okay, I take back everything I said.
LMAO
Yay for raging hormones.<3~
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TWENTY TEN.

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10:48 pm


Wow.
What can I say about 2009....
Another epic year, That's for sure.
I had my good times, and my big fat share of bad times as well.


Like you, (hopefully) I've learned from my mistakes, and grown up even more.
I learned to accept my horrid past, and today I will use that as a motivation to be better.
I've been in a rocky relationship for the past 2 years and a half, and even though it didn't end so well, I don't regret it at all.
Through it, I met many new friends, and I learned alot about love and relationships.

It made me learn that I'm not ready for a serious relationship...
I really want to focus on my career and future right now.

When I feel ready to share my life with the person I love,
I want to be financially ready too!
I want to become independent, and I want to learn to love myself first.
So that's one resolution!
Maintain a healthy relationship with thyself.<3


Second, Now that i'm single, there needs to be change.
I admit, I am a attractive person.
I'm certainly not perfect though.
I still feel "too skinny" sometimes..
How my nose looks huge in diffrent angles, my strong jawline, my slight over bite, the lines and scars on my skin... even my long toes, LOLOL

We all have little flaws whether we recognize them or not.
I can look past mines. And for the past month, a new confident "sexy" Krystle has been slowly emerging.
I've met many new faces, and it just makes me feel like i'm in highschool all over again! *giggle*

My point is that I need to learn to control myself, and be careful!
My kindness (especially from an attractive person) can give off the wrong message.
So that's another New year's resolution.
Be SOCIAL and have fun,
but do not lead people on or hurt others.

I have other TOP SECRET New year resolutions, and just other typical goals I'm sure you guys don't want to hear me ramble on about...
All there is to say is.....
I WILL DOMINATE TWENY TEN.

And you can't stop me.....


BECAUSE I AM THE GINGERBREADMAN.



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10:50 pm
BTW.

MY CAMERA BROKE.
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I need one ASAP.
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