Clear Eyes.

12:12 am
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So so so so so so sorry.
For not updating lately...
I've just been really distracted..
cough* tumblr, and cough* boyfriend. <3 LOL'
ANYWAYS I just wanted to post something.
roflrofl
hi

Everyone, please read!

So I've decided that I need to stop pushing people away. I avoided getting close to others because I was afraid I'd hurt or lose them, and in return I get what I hate most, and that's loneliness. For those who still are here for me, I promise to keep you close. I want to repay everyone back.

For this past week I realized how nice it felt to give, and to talk to "strangers" who later turned into new friends. And I want more. I welcome anyone and everyone, I want cute pen pals I could write letters and send cute things to. Message me through Facebook/Myspace or comment this post!~
Starting today, love is my weapon, and I will gladiate .

Revlon "Beyond Natural" 3x Volume Dramatic eyelashes!

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12:06 am

After stocking up on snacks, I found myself wandering the makeup aisles of Walmart. I suddenly had a slight urge to want to get fluttery thick dramatic eyelashes, and this is what I found.

^ Found this picture online

I forgot how much this was exactly, but it was about 4 dollars!
I really liked the packaging; For 4 dollars, it was in a sturdy plastic box, and it also came with a cute folded piece of paper I didn't bother reading...
The way it looks and feels, it makes the product appear to be high quality, therefore, I keep it in the box, because It makes me feel like I own a special and expensive item.. Maybe it's the filipino in me LOL
There's also "step by step" instructions on the back , it's very useful and pleasing to the eye for you beginners out there!
I put them on as soon as I got home and I loved them!
It's ultra lightweight, and easy to apply, I was impressed by how soft and smooth they were too.
The only thing I didn't like about it is how shiny they are.
The overall shape of it was okay too, they look like blocks of black on your eyes, me >>> (-.-)
I wasn't so crazy about these because I like eyelashes with more of flattering shape!
Whispy, spikes, crisscross styles...

BUT! After all, This is "Beyond Natural" 3x Volume DRAMATIC eyelashes,
so I wasn't surprised. I bought these eyelashes to satisfy my curiosity, and for pure fun. They look really nice in pictures!
It makes my eyes look more cartoon or "anime" like because the thickness covers my eye crease a bit- It's as if I'm wearing eyeshadow, or really thick eyeliner!
I don't know where I'd wear them out, but here are a couple pictures! enjoy.~








So..... .. .. . . .. .
Hope you enjoyed my mini review!
Goodnight everyone!
And you. <3
Muah.

Happy Easter Sunday!

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11:22 pm

Hopefully this week will be a better one? Hopefully.
I had a really really really really really nice weekend though. Thanks to him<3
Also, I'm still waiting on ONE more package!
It's probably going to come in tomorrow, or Tuesday.. Expect two reviews!
And for this past week, I guess the only thing that has been keeping me sane was food. I ate a lot of delicious foods....
Now it's almost twelve. And here I am sipping on a chilled can of Sprite..
Uploading pictures onto my lappy, and blogging the night away.
Here is a picture haul of meals/snacks and other new things.



I love Steak, onions and bell peppers... with a fried egg on the side! Beef patties with gravy... I could never get tired of steak.


Heres what I always get at the mall- The Mini Kalbi plate from Pearls barbeque with 4 pcs Fried Man doo, it's my favorite.
My side choices - cabbage and macaroni salad!


These Shrimp Shumai dumplings...
You can buy them anywhere, I got mines from Walmart. You just defrost them in the microwave for 45 seconds, and brown them up a bit on the frying pan if you want it to be crispy! Really tasty. drool/


I don't know where my mom got these, but we have Mickey Mouse chicken nuggets! High quality white chicken meat too! These are too cute to eat.. I always bite the ears off first : D And if you havnt noticed by now, I always add Aji Nori Furitake to my rice!



AND THENNNN
My new snack obsession...
Hawaii Popcorn company's Hawaiian Gourmet Popcorn
I just bought a new bag of the "Red and Green" flavor that's supposedly a local favorite.
It's just sweet red/green colored candied popcorn, but I still like the "Hurricane" flavor better though.
I ate it all and I had to dig it out of my trash to take a picture of the bag,
hee hee.

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These are baked mussels my sister brought home! I just ate a few of them,
I loved it. The orange stuff is fish eggs btw.
And LOLOL I stuck them in the microwave to warm them up and one exploded..
LOOK AT IT.
LOOK
AT.
IT.
Fish eggs all over the microwave. ;_;



Lastly, since I've been feeling bad for Shadow, I now allow Shadow to come into my room whenever she wants to, LOL
In the bottom left corner of my window there has always been a teeny hole..
That hole is now big enough for Shadow to climb in... HEE HEE
She comes in late at night to eat my leftovers I usually leave out...
Then she leaves my room when she's done.
But that's after she just lays in bed with me for a while.<3
And when she needs to poop she'll leave.
It's so cute.



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Goodnight everyone. <3

Friday

9:59 am
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I guess I've accepted the fact that the kitten died...
The way it happened is still a shock to me though.
I feel bad for the woman. She loves animals just as much as I do..

How could you live knowing that you stepped on a kitten and killed it?
As fucked up as it sounds, it didn't stop my sister and I's humor.
What if we vandalized her car and sprayed : " KITTY STOMPER" on it, LOL
That's one thing we thought.. I also wished that this was some April Fool's joke..
It's over now, and I no longer mope or cry over things that cant be changed.
I'm more of a thinker, my feelings don't show very well. I just feel bittersweet?
It was still nice to hear the remaining kittens playing in their box outside...
Cat's don't really understand "death."
That's why Shadow is still looking around...
Did you know that?
Animals grieve.
Even when a pet owner dies, sometimes their dogs or cats would wait at the door, for weeks, months, sometimes they'd refuse to eat.
Being taken to vets to take appetite enhancers, some are just traumatized.
They'll keep searching.

I love animals.
Well.
After this not so great week, today is Friday, and I finally got two of my packages!
Also, my foot feels fine, I don't feel any aching muscle pains any more, no itches!
exhales*
I'll do some kind of review for my packages later!
I need to grab some breakfast, be right back!~

I'm sorry Shadow.

11:35 pm
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Today was... not great.
One of Shadow's kittens died.
I'm not sure which one yet, but it's one of the black ones..
I'm just too afraid and not ready to see which one it was.
So.
This afternoon, My sister and I was home and we suddenly heard our renters fighting again. This has happened before. The first time, the police had to come over, and I overheard the woman talking to them about their relationship, and how they have a past of domestic abuse on both parts.
They've been living downstairs in this nice studio for about three months now.
A couple, and her daughter. The woman is in her late twenties, still finishing up college, and working two jobs. She pays for the rent, and She is either divorced or apart from her ex love; She moved to Maui and met her new boyfriend here.
The man on the other hand (her boyfriend, now ex) , has no job, regularly goes to bars/clubs, and from what she said, "parties a lot." He comes home late drunk and angry sometimes..
My room is just above their studio so I can pretty much hear everything.
I feel bad for her daughter sometimes, she's 13? 14?
Anyways.
My sister and I heard them arguing.. It later transitioned to yelling, then screaming, we heard things being thrown, then, we heard crying and it just got out of hand. I heard someone run up the stairs and knock quickly at our back door, it was her daughter, her eyes were pouring tears, she stuttered as she asked where my parents were, Then the lady ran out to the stairs and frantically asked the same question, and she ran back in.
I was scared as shit, I didn't know what happened, and then cops got here.
Things got quiet, and my sister looked out the window.
She saw the woman kneeling down, holding one of the black kittens in her hands.
It's body limp and bent, crooked.
She told me and I started crying so hard, so many things ran threw my head, I didn't know what to do, or what to think!
I heard the door slam, did they slam the door on the kitten? We heard things being thrown around, is that how it could of gotten hurt? Did one of them hurt it out of anger? I had no fucking idea.
I was so fucking upset.
After pacing around and making a few calls to our parents/ boyfriends our uncle came upstairs.
He said that he tried reviving the kitten, but it couldn't make it. And this is what went down, according to what she explained to the cops.
They were arguing because he was on drugs, or was drunk, and things just got really bad. He tried beating her, and when she ran out the door away from him, she accidentally stepped (or stumbled onto) one of the kittens that were sleeping in front of their door.
Just the thought of it suffering made me sick.
The police took him away and I think he was arrested for abusing her, I'm not sure.
And everyone pretty much cried. The woman and her daughter got really close to Shadow's kittens as well, so they felt extremely guilty and apologized for what happened today. My parents later came home and we told them everything. My dad buried the kitten. The house was quiet tonight.

Now.
The thing my sister and I was talking about... these crazy fucked up relationships.
For the couples that fight way too much, that stay in these abusive hurtful relationships... It's so fucking selfish. I hope this incident opens this woman's eyes. You're not only hurting each other. You are hurting everyone else around you.
Also, this woman seemed a bit psycho in the relationship. Like she could of provoked it. Then it led to us talking about how it's so arrogant of guys to complain about "psycho ex girlfriends." Yeah they may be crazy, but they weren't born that way. Something may have happened for them to behave the way they do.
I am very upset about this, but I don't hate them. I don't personally know them, it was just bad luck. It was a horrible accident.

I'm sorry Shadow. She only has three kittens now. I'm so angry at myself for not taking a picture of all them together.. I've only taken a picture of Ink. And it could be him. My sister brought Rocky upstairs so it's either Ink, or Luna. I feel so bad for Shadow. She's been looking around for hours, meowing for her missing kitten. I sneaked her through my window earlier to feed her shrimp and Vienna sausages, it's like she knew her kitten was gone- Her meows sounded like she was mourning.

I'm so sorry Shadow. I told her that. All those nights she individually tried sneaking in each kitten into our house, looking for a different place for them to grow. She didn't trust the renters. She wanted her kittens in my room not outside, but my dad didn't approve. I feel so fucking bad right now. Don't tell me it's just a cat. I love animals. They think, they observe, they remember their names, remember people, they have hearts. I can't imagine how it feels like to lose your child. I have so many things to say, but I should stop.

I am so sorry Shadow<3


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I promise I'll update/reply to formsprings tomorrow ok?
I wasn't in the best mood today, and I need to get some sleep.
My foot is feeling better btw.
Till it be morrow.~