clouds and stars

12:21 am
hi
I'm back! I moved my laptop again.
I don't know why but I found myself walking outside.
I left my room door slightly closed and I went out my back door.
No lights, the door shut (or so I thought) and I was barefoot too.
I'm wearing only a cotton tank and baby pink silk shorts, I leaned against my door frame and I couldn't control myself from shaking,I was damn cold.
It wasn't bad though, it's an all over body reaction and most of the time I really like it. The fun part is controlling that cold feeling by thinking "warm" thoughts.

everything we feel is all in our brain you know. Whether it be pressure, warmth or cold on your skin. Your attitude about it, what you expect from it, reflecting past pain experiences... If you can rethink and alter what pain feels like , then you can control how you suffer from it.I think the same goes for emotional pain too.

.....

"Hi kitties"
They were watching me this whole time and even started rubbing their bodies at my calves at this point,

It made me shiver more.

Looking out at the sky, I continued to walk forward and stood in front of the porch railing with my arms at my hips.
I would rest my elbows at the wooden rail,
but tonight the morning dew wanted to watch the stars too.

I observed the stars and my surroundings. The light casting from my room and onto the lawn, I looked back at my window and the warm glow insisted that I should get back in. I stayed a little longer and just store at the sky.

...


What if every star in the sky was an idea and every time a star died, it was because someone discovered it? I'm going to pretend that from now on. The sky will always be here. I'll also pretend that clouds are thoughts, and your memory. Just anything we have all seen. They are inspiring and pretty but they come and go. Those memories you have- it's like an ongoing steady slide show. Or a rotating gallery of your life.
Stars are hidden during the day, but we know they're still there. We need to keep searching for them.
We just can't quite find them very well with all the thoughts and memories you always carry with you. That's why the stars are so amazing. It's so simple and mysterious. When everything else around you turns black you can only see the bright in the sky. And you want it. I want it.

...

The cold air blew at the hairs of my face, I held myself. My arms are tiny and my hands were already cold but I wasn't shaking anymore.
The back door creaked.
My heart froze and I turned around only to see the door behind me wide open now, it scared me and I stepped back in and locked the door.
I walked into my room and opened my laptop/

hi.

giggle

8:34 am
*yawn*
I went to bed around 3am again, It's been so hard for me to go to bed early, I need to quit this bad habit. What's even more odd is that I woke up around 6 in the morning, rolled around in bed and _____________ with you then I sat up when you fell back asleep.

My back bent, I slouched and turned my head at my blurred mirror.
I quickly hopped up from bed to head straight to the bathroom. -
Shit I forgot to wash my face last night. Krystle, you want to look your best, there is only a month left till he's here.
I saw my dirty face.
I brought you with me, put you on speaker and layed you on this ceramic sink frame so I could continue my morning routine.
Water pouring on my hands, I was racing the flow of water, and how quick they fell between my fingers, or overflowed my cupped palms.
I hate to waste.
I splashed my face and looked back up at the mirror, Pausing only to see my raccoon eyes staring back at me.
One pump of cleanser I rubbed my hands together to form a loose foam and I cleaned my face, concentrating around the rim of my eyes.

That damn waterproof eyeliner.

It does look kinda pretty this way.


I squeezed a tube of toothpaste onto my tool and ducked my head downwards to the fossit. Without touching the steel I allowed my mouth to fill with water,
swished streams around my mouth, the bristles were scraping away last nights sushi, and the sugar from the cereal I ate before going to bed, It was that daily fill for my belly so I can fall asleep easier.
My mouth was minty/fresh but my throat was still dry, I was thirsty!

______________ dehydrates you, you know.

I picked you up and left you in my room to charge and I went to the kitchen to find something to drink.
No to orange juice, no to soda, Ah, watermelon'!
LOL
I cut myself a thick slice of watermelon and-
brb, need to pee and I'm really hungry.
I know I haven't been updating much, and I haven't been posting my little descriptive stories of these little events I have.. So here you go.
I'll continue this later!~

june!

2:00 am

Wow I think I'll be hoarding my photos this way now! It's much more easier than individually uploading each photo, and on the plus side, you guys get more pics!
The first few photos are just pictures of Ink sleeping on my bed..
Doesn't she look like a gremlin in the right column third down?
Lately the weather here in Hawaii has been so hot and humid..
This weather makes me feel so irritable and sticky, I hate it so much.
I feel bad for my brother, I have been raging on him so much. Thankfully, we have an ice cream truck that comes by every weekday!
Which means..... ... . . . . .. .
A LOT OF SHAVE ICE AND ICE CREAMMMM YEAaaAAAaaAAAaaAAhhhHHHhhhhHH*!
(ulyber knows how I say this) LOL!
I also went to Wal mart the other night and bought a pack of cute cotton undies. Stupid me, did not pay any attention to the tiny "size Large" sticker on the top right of the package. I was too busy looking for a pack with cute designs/colors I grabbed one without thinking twice.
I even tried one on and since I have the body of a twelve year old azn boy, my tiny tooshie cannot fit it :[ It's like barely hanging on!
I'll be giving out the extra few to a couple of friends LOL I hope they like it ;]
Since I haven't touched my sewing machine for a long time, I decided to "resize" one of the panties for myself... And since it's Ulyber and I's half year mark, I decided to sew on a fat letter "U" for Ulyber! LOLOLOL
I bugged him this morning around 4 am when I finished it just so I could show it to him. His reaction was priceless.

Not to mention he also "returned the favor" (giggle/) and made another song for me! I wuv it.
" our presents for each other, On our half-versary:
Custom panties and a rap song ."
LOLOL.

I made a mini felt donut too! It was Donut day/Oscar the grouch's birthday roday. :D
It's made from ecofelt,sequins,beads,rhinestones, polyester cotton,and a ribbon for its removable bow- It turned out pretty cute for something I quickly put together in less than an hour! enjoy.
*btw I hope my pantie pictures aren't too provocative or "slutty" : O
Just pretend I'm wearing a bikini! LOL*